Term one complete of 2nd year at uni, this term I’m going to attend ALL lectures and more importantly ALL seminars 5 months ago

It seems to me that everything has to have a reason. Otherwise there’s no point in it existing or occuring. Whenever I have a boring task to do, I ask myself why I’m doing it. And if there isn’t one, I look for one or stop doing whatever it is. I end up looking for reasons inside reasons inside reasons like when thinking about exam revision. Why revise? so you do well in exams. Why do well in exams? it improves your chances of getting the job/uni place you want. Why get a job? so you can live comfortably. Why live?... then I can’t think of a reason for it. Lately I’ve given myself goals and things to achieve before I die that’ll keep me trundling on for a while but I still don’t feel a sense of motivation, a sense that life and everything that comes with it will be worth it. 17 months ago

more struggling to do, despite the holidays approaching. I’ve got to get 3000 words done by tuesday and it’s taken me like a week to do the first 1000. I just want it to be over so I can finally relax. 23 months ago