be more motivated

I’ve finally kicked myself into overdrive. I’m doing all the things I’ve wanted to. I’ve been applying for lots of music internships, signing up for tarot and belly-dancing classes, and filling out transfer applications for school in New York. This weekend I’ll be doing laundry and packing. It’ll be wonderful.

I’m really excited about these changes in my life.

I feel like my life is going unlived. I want to make things happen. To make my will go to work. I promised a dead man that I would.

I can officially check this goal as completed because since January I have made commitments and followed them through 100%! Here’s a list of a few things that I’ve been motivated to change:

1) Exercise 4-6 times per week.
2) Stop drinking coffee (more importantly Iced Caramel Macchiatos!).
3) Stop using Splenda (I used to get horrible headaches and they disappeared after I stopped).
4) Stop eating fast food (I used to be addicted so I’m still surprised that I was able to give it up!)
5) Stop drinking alcoholic beverages (aside from on my wedding day and honeymoon, I’ve shown remarkable restraint!).

I am so proud of myself, now all I need to do is find the motivation to get an A in my last statistics course!

Learn to adopt a positive attitude even when I am feeling bad and unhappy or in uncomfortable situations.
I will do this by eating good healthy food, meditating, thinking positive. When I have changed my mind to a positive attitude I will hopefully be more motivated to do the tasks on this list.

I didn’t have any ambitions. Now I do, and I know what I need to achieve them.

It’s worth it, knowing what you want.

luck helps with this one, bad luck hurts, ive experienced both, now im on the good luck side again, just be patient when its time for bad luck, thats all

Okay, so I suppose that opening up this account is a good start towards this goal, now isn’t it? I had heard in the past how writing down your goals and keep track of them is a good way of accomplishing things, but I had never bothered to do it because I couldn’t think of a simple or effective way to organize this sort of task that wouldn’t bother me (who is ever so anal-retentive).

As far as being more motived, I am someone who generally can accomplish something if I put my mind to it. Though, as of late, both my mind and my heart haven’t been into things as much as I’d like. I know a lot of this is related to me being depressed over my job hunt ; I have a nasty knack of being too pessimistic. Maybe I should try to read some motivation books and find some inspiring quotations, even though I generally find those sorts of things to be corny. I’m kind of hoping that diligently adding to this goal list of mine will be enough to bolster my esteem.

I have very little motivation. It’s hard for me to get things done because it’s even harder for me to start them. I write a lot and would love to make writing a career, but I rarely ever find the motivation to start and finish a project completely. Also, I’ve started a diet about a million times (same with exercising), and I can never see it through.

I have big goals and even bigger dreams, and it seems like I watch them pass me by all the time. As I coast through life and merely exist from day to day, I watch so many years that I had planned to achieve certain goals by slip away. When I was 21 I wanted to be finishing college. I hadn’t even started then. I wanted to lose weight when I was a teen. I’m still fat.

So much time has been lost and you’d think I’d have learned my lesson by now, but it seems to be a lesson a lot of people never really learn the importance of until it’s too late. Some people (dancers, actors, performers, etc.) seem to be born motivated. They put so much time and effort into everything that they do. I always wanted to be like that, but I’m not.

When my brother was a teen, he was tired of my family never having money, so he went out and got THREE different jobs. He didn’t have a car to get to work with, so he walked to work whenever he couldn’t get a ride. Back then, he was the epitome of motivation. Everyone, myself included, was very proud and inspired by him. Unfortunately, it didn’t rub off on me.

Sometimes I stop and think about the future and what technology is doing to people. If you ever listen to an older person talk about their lives, they have so many stories to share and so many precious memories. A good portion of our society lives its life through TV, food, the internet, gaming, etc. What memories will we have to share? We wasted our lives away.

It frustrates me that I can see this so clearly and still it’s a problem for me. I’m putting forth effort to become more disciplined, but it’s definitely a work in progress. I’m tired of being a dreamer. I want to be a doer. I want to say “I started yesterday,” not “I’ll start tomorrow.” For those of us who aren’t naturally motivated, it’s an uphill climb.

I’m tired of starting over from the bottom.

I think I know why…
Well I have been dealing with insomnia for like 4 months now and I have told my parents but I still don’t think they understand what it’s actually like to have insomnia. I mean I have decribed it and I have asked if they know what it is… anyways if they aren’t going to do anything about it then I am stuck in this stupid cycle… thank you parents…

I’d like to start by being more motivated to complete the tasks on this list!
Maybe I should get rid of the more unrealistic goals I have listed, since not completing them (and having them on the list for years at a time) is a disappointment I do not need.