learn to let go

I am a Chinese Doctor candidate in School of International Studies, Renmin University of China. I am interested in Poland and my research area is Polish government foreign policy. I don’t speak Polish and carry out research about Polish external policy in English.
Therefore, I would like to know some students, teachers from Poland who may help me to offer information about Poland and get acquainted with Poland.
Of course, if you are not Pole while you are familiar with Poland, I am glad to get to know you, too.
Thank you for your attention. I am looking forward to knowing you.
My Email address:
mycccp@163.com
Hal Sowell

I am sick of sitting around wasting my life because I’m stuck in the past!! I have to learn to just get over it and move on.

I feel lighter like I’ve let go. I’m still a bit of a packrat though but that’s an entirely different issue. Right now, I’m feeling as free as a bird and very very happy with life. Good bye chains!

I save everything! I have letters, pictures, movie tickets, literally EVERYTHING that had to do with someone special from my past. I have this journal that I’ve kept for four years. Sometimes saving all these things and writing every little thing down just reminds me of stuff that is completely unnecessary to remember, let alone dwell on.

Refusing to let go of the past prevents you from progressing towards your future. People make mistakes and people can change. But just understand that people can only change for the betterment of themselves.

I feel my old self and my blossoming new self Fighting each other on this and it is one weird feeling. As of right now I am getting there little by little. I’m trying to shed the old feeling and get a grasp on healthier out looks that are more productive and positive. So far, I’m doing well :)

excuse the Marxist paraphrased quote. today a mate and i ran helter-skelter through school, we had seven minutes to obtain the delicious treat of a sausage roll before we would be late to class. my friend, the athlete, told me to run. so we did. she stacked it when i paused to drop my bag at class. it was brilliant. i should just let go more often.

Sometimes holding on depletes what could have otherwise been beautiful. I’ve learned that people change, life goes wrong and good things fall apart, but I’ve also learned this is how we’re able to let go, appreciate and also, realize better things can fall together.

Today has been a bad day in the goals department. I knew I had no control over this but what did I do? Well I certainly didn’t let go of it. I dwelt on it, I stressed, I cried, I did nothing all day because I was entirely too consumed by worry. I’m afraid this relationship is changing me for the worse. That terrifies me.

I have learned to let go of material losses that I was very upset about.

Now, onto a biggie: learning to let go of the atomic grudge against our branch manager, who is the greediest, sleaziest, most selfish and most destructive asshole I have ever had the displeasure to know. I need to forgive what he’s done to everyone and to the branch so I can let go of this grudge and my anger. I just don’t know how.

Then, its on to learning to let go of my past, which basically means: forgiving myself for leaving Scotland and letting go of the ‘what-ifs’; forgiving myself for being overweight for a few years; forgiving myself for not being more active in high school; forgiving myself for being a total bitch to my 8th grade math teacher; forgiving the boys who teased me in late 4th and early 5th grade; forgiving myself for all the rejecting Ive done; and forgiving myself for all the “bad” decisions Ive made.

I think the final piece will be letting go of my flaws and giving myself permission to be fully human~

i have this inane ability to hoard things. any thing. however pointless and space wasting. from random useless files on the laptop to purposeless pursuits. i want to delete each and every thing in my life that is not conducive to a fulfilling, purposeful life.

starting right now. with the movies that i hate but are still clogging up my hard drive, because i think i might need them when the world ends. alright then!