memories

Forget the sorrow
& I can be on the last train home.

Watch it pass the day, as it fades away, No more time to care, No more time, today.

Life is good. College and friends are stable.

Enjoying life, acting more like a teenager now..been out c1ubbing twice now – enjoying it.

First time went with a college friend, met an old friend and her work friends, lost them, hanged with her and her work friends. Met this lovley guy..Got a taxi home, stayed at her house, got the bus back to my house around 10ish. Felt dead.

Second time went with my two college friends and her ex-boyf. Wasn’t as drunk as last time, the first time I went I swear I was drugged or somthing..! Met someone called Chole – she was so lovley and looks abit like Brody Dalleee! I prefered it this time – much better music, were with people I felt comfortable around. However he wasn’t there..I tryed to phone twice – phone off..maybe? No reply to my messages. hah what was I thinking..? Would of been too good to be true, as I said earlier there is always tomorrow.

I have a mini phone interview – Hope I get a job soon, so I can be earning moneys, wont get nagged at and will have somthing to do on teh weekends.

Driving test soon? What do you think..? ‘Cus I don’t have a cluee…!

Okay, well I’m off to bed now..only got like 4hours sleep last night:p Should of had a lye in..!

Night oxoxo 2 years ago

Had a really bad day on Monday, the rest of the week has however been so far so good :)

I want a dwarf hamster, they are the cutest things going! 2 years ago

Today was one of my down days.

The first thing that upset me was coming in an hour early to meet a friend then texting her like I’m with a guy at home, see you soon. Didn’t see her, she let me down. Then I found out she let another friend down for this guy, I mean c’mon she has a baby and a boyfriend..what is she doing?

Another thing is texting someone three times and getting no reply then seeing them and them saying to me “oh sorry I was being social, it is great” could of told me?

Then I was late to my lesson

Then in the lesson one of my friends who I have been friends with for 3 years tells me he is leaving college :( Just so upsetting but you know everything happens for a reason..?

Then had sjay and tut which were boring, I was feeling lonley and let down. Did do abit on my personal statment though :)

Wonder what tomorrow will be like?

Some say that time changes; best friends can become strangers but I don’t want that no not for you. If you just stay with me
we can make it through.

Growing apart from people once again. Oh.

Oh I also passed my theory test = win :D yayy 2 years ago

:) I am so happy with my B exam result, B in single ICT and BC in double ICT, I honeslty thought I was going to get a C for the exam, C for Single ICT and a D for Double ICT, all the effort, time and revision really paid off.

I have never got a B before although I did get a distinction in OCR L2 ICT last year which is equal to a A.

I am just so shocked, last year when I was doing OCR L2 ICT, English GCSE and Maths GCSE I never thought I would be able to achive such a thing. I’m so lucky to have been given a second chance at college to do my Maths and English GCSE again.

I could of have just left my Maths and English GCSE with rubbish results – E and a D however I was given a second chance at college to do my Maths and English GCSE again. 2 years ago

I am so happy and shocked with my A level results, I got a BB for ICT I honestly thought I was going to get C D.

All the hard work I put in paid off.

I was so nervous about going to get my results, I was almost crying when I was asking for my results, when I was walking up the drive I saw Stacey she came in with me to get my results, I got the envelope, saw Beth, sat down at a table with Beth and Stacey opened up my results and was amazed to see I had got a BB – I couldn’t believe it! I was so shocked and happy I started crying tears of happiness/relif. I am just so shocked, this is one of my greatest achivments.

Driving lesson tomorrow or am I too tired? 2 years ago

So i’ve been on college for 2 weeks now according to my last entry on here, found my ID..sister obv. just put it back. Havn’t been up to anything really, went last week shopping with B, S and L then went to see Bruno with B, it was so funny however some parts were really disturbing and went for a meal at a families friends house yesterday, was cool. So yeah that is all I have really been up to in the real world. In my own little world I had a driving lesson, tidyed my room today, looks good – surprzed I did it.

Going on holiday on Sunday – can’t believe it, going for 16 days, not sure how to feel about it.

ok until next time. 2 years ago

2 days left of college until sept.

lost my ID, can not find it! it is driving me so crazy! I WANT IT!

:( SCREAM

I remember the last time I think I had it was at Beth’s picnic in which I didn’t use it..then swear I put it in my silver box..it isn’t there now..:( i’ve searched high and low for it!

It has my name and address on it so you think if I lost it somewhere they would post it? who knows :(

Just want it back..!

anyway, going to bed now, night. 2 years ago

Time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away

Felt so happy this morning, was listening to cage the elephant and kelis with a massive smile on my face, tutor was abit :/ doing personal statements atm and i’m struggling, sj was alright, last AS Sj ever.
Time is flying by, going to miss college during half term.

mwah x 2 years ago

Havn’t blogged in a week, last week was pretty rubbish, I’ve been so angrey and upset but everything is better in my head now, feeling much happier.

Forever loosing things, lost my ID AGAIN! I do try to look after my things, I have a feeling someone has pinched it from my room..last time I had it was at Beth’s picnic and I swear I put it back in my silver box.

Got all my work that I did last year back, had a browse through it brought back memories, thats in the past now i’ve got the qualifcation which i’m happy about. I’m going to decorate my room with the work, nah i’m joking :p hah

Dad booked holiday, how am I going to survive 2 weeks on holiday with my family? I do not know :/

Last double 1CT lesson on Monday well for this year anyway, which is rather shocking, this year has gone too fast for my liking I really did enjoy every lesson and never didn’t want to go. Next year will be different due to the new building.

Next year for single 1CT will also be well different, new building, new teacher..could be good or bad lets just hope the college choose the right person.

Last SJ lesson of the year, i’ve actully really enjoyed it and learnt a fair bit. 2 years ago

Driving lesson went well, need to get on with my theory..

I am so bored at the moment! I miss college..it gives me somthing to do and I am really enjoying it at the moment. Back on Monday for 3ish weeks then 6 weeks off..hopfully will be good :) and do lots of things that are free.. 2 years ago

Mate!

My friend’s party was amazing, he rented out a pub which had a wacky warehouse attached to it, it was so surreal! I loved it :)

Anyway Sunday went to my auntys for a bbq, was bare tired and wanted to get home asap.

Monday went to college had a sore throat in the morning, came home felt sick, was sick four times :/ then on Tuesday morning so I took the day off college on Tuesday wasn’t like there was much going on anyway :p

Today ICT was canclled just needed to go in to hand in my business studies assignment, I felt it went really well and I actully understanded it so i’m happy about that. Me are Rach left to go to town at 1 got the bus around 1:20 then we went to br4nd0n hill park which was totally cute, picnic under the trees in the shade next to a stream, was toooooooo hot today was sweating on the bus, oh yeah when I was getting off the bus the driver decided to drive when the door was open what a noob! could of been a serious accident there..! well anyway I left town at 4ish so I was there for around 2 hours oh and Rach showed me loads of these cool shops on p44rk str3t which were totally cute :) I need to get to know my town better as it is such a beautiful place full of beautiful people, history, art, shops, education, life, views..just genral city life which i’m no way used to!

Right no college until Monday, great :) driving lesson tomorrow oh yeah.

I need to hear some sounds that recognize the pain in me, yeah
I let the melody shine, let it cleanse my mind , I feel free now
But the airwaves are clean and there’s nobody singing to me now 2 years ago

Friday, this week has gone really fast. Today was good feel like i’m doing alright in business now i’m back on track and eyeteecee was good. I left my memory stick in there though :/ feel like a right idiot now! Well lets bloddy dam well hope it is there on Monday.

Going to a party tomorrow, looking forward to it :) Catching up with old friends and making new ones, not too sure what to expect hope it is good like well a day is what you make of it.

Still waiting for my lip piercing :P hope I like it when it comes.

I would like to feel asif I was falling up, I really would. I’ve only really done it once and ruined it. Oh well i’ve left the past in the past and i’m finding the future even though it really actully hurts. 2 years ago

Had a badbadbadbad nightmare lastnight, it was horrible! Well it made me realise life is short then in s j today my teacher was talking about life being too short and taking things for grantage, which we all sometimes forget. Not going to be here forever.

Ordered my new lip piercing :) 2 years ago

Well..Thought I lost my provisional found it, found my memory stick. Still lost my labret piecring, pretty annoying! :/ Went into Bath today to look for a new one – no luck. Not impressed.

Should I give in trying to find it and just order one online? hmmmmph.

It rained well heavy today, well I supose it is better than being sweaty.

Really enjoying my lesson in college just so happy with it. :) 2 years ago

Another good day; ICT thing didn’t go to plan! was havn’t trouble using flash, lunch with Rach, Claire and Emma then business where we actully got taught somthing :) I am happy my teacher is back, so much better than the cover one we had who didn’t teach us anything. The atmosphere is that lesson was so positive and good :) just so good.

Emma gave me and Rach a lift to ktown then got the bus from there :) so warm today! too warm for my liking again. 2 years ago

Today was good, ICT, lunch, ICT, free, tutor.
Had a UCAS talk today, I found it really useful, not really looking forward to writting my personal statment lots and lots to write about myself which I am going to find hard seeing.

ICT was boring this morning then my second ICT lesson was pretty good, learnt some useful flash skills :) really fun.

The weather was too hot today, hope it isn’t as warm tomorrow.

Really good day overall, got a supply for ICT tomorrow then business studies..hmm going to be weird learning new things but I am looking forward to it all :) 2 years ago

what a lovley Sunday, race for life back home for a massive roast dinner in the garden with a massive desert :) then just chillaxing in the garden :)

so hot today, I was sweating..too hot to run :(

got college tomorrow, looking forward to it, off to bed soon :) mwah.x 2 years ago

today was good, driving lesson went really well and college was pretty pointless teacher wasn’t in so we just messed about with flash was fun really :)

Actully looking forward to college on Monday :) 2 years ago

Today was good, enjoying my course more this lesson, last lesson was abit of a shock really and I went into panic mode. Driving lesson and 1 lesson tomorrow in college tomorrow going to be a different kind of day, looking forward to it. 2 years ago

Listening to Foo Fighters and playin’ GTA.

Foo Fighters are immense, they give me butterflies :) 2 years ago

today was a good day, all my friends were in for a English exam so I wasn’t alone. I had one lesson today, ICT we ha a introduction to A two’s, oh my my my, it is enough hard. I love learning new stuff it is just hard to take in, we are currently on web managment unit and I know it is going to be solid!

Found out i’ve got 2 exams, both 10 hours! so next May is going to well stressfull.

Going to read through the notes I made today so they will actully stick in my head and so I can be one step ahead.

My friend is considering leaving, hope he doesn’t.

Anyway got 2 lessons tomorrow, oh and got the dentis. coolcool. 2 years ago

today was okay, firsly coming in was okay bumped into my friend Tom, he offered to be my friend hah sounds funny, anyway break time was bad went into the refectory no one I knew was there, bumped into Charlotte just was like oh hi ect ect then she was like “cya ..” I was like “oh right bye”

ICT was really good, learning flash..hmm going to have to keep up with this project! alot of work in a short space of time.

My old teacher is back for business studies, she said if you had done the work you could go which I was happy about, so won’t have to go tomorrow and Friday :)

Lunch time was alright :) guess one of my only friends now is Claire, she is lovley.

Anyway somthing doesn’t feel right in my head, so much stuff going through it at the moment, should be fine by the end of the week when I have settled back into college.

Only got 1 lesson tomorrow, might stay at lunch with Claire as that would be a nice thing to do and imagin if she had to have lunch on her own. Anyway, wonder what I will be doing in ICT tomorrow..hmmph.

right, cya. 2 years ago

well, coming up to 10 pm, should be off to bed soon to charge up on enegry. Tomorrow should be fine :)

nightnight.x.x 2 years ago

Not sure about tomorrow now, really starting to worry. All my friends have left, only know one person from the friendship group who is staying, saying that she has other friends. I also have a few other friends who are staying – one in IT, one in other IT, two in business, two in tutor..other than that I have one friend from secondary school who is staying oh and my friends sister. oh god. why am I so worried? I fear being alone and unhappy. 2 years ago

iPod has arrived, syning it up now. Great timing just in time for college tomorrow. College..not sure what to expect tomorrow? i’m sure it will be fine :) hope the weather isn’t too hot :{} oh yeah and I have to go to all my lessons, not sure about s j thought :$ got to get on with my personal statment, I hope I don’t struggle with it too much.

Anyway will blog tomorrow about how it goes :} 2 years ago

Still waiting for my ipod, tracked it online was in Tamworth on the 6th so it should be here tomorrow which would be excellent as I go back to college on the Tuesday :)

Not really looking forward to it, well lessons I am just not lunch and break times, i’m not sure what I am expecting everyone has left :/ what if I can’t find anyone? how horrible would that be.

I’m sure it will be fine, lessonwise I am looking forward to learning new things in ICT however not looking forward to business, find it really hard and borning.

Driving lesson and dentis on Thursday :)

I would like a job. 2 years ago

Life is good right now, cousin came today, big brother on tv, got 12 months xbl

wicked times :) wicked times, indeed.

back to college next week though :( 2 years ago

The Apprentice semi-final, loving it :) 2 years ago

Had a driving lesson today, went alrightish. Not my best lesson, need to concentrate more! so difficult :(

The weather is so lovley right now abit too hot for my liking but can’t always have what I want! 26 degrees.

I’ve applied for a job at m&s, crazy times..just need money to go to uni and make my dad shut up, starting a job is a scary experance as I found out last year, so if I do get the job ect. ect. I would be very nervous however hopfully people there would be more friendly and welcoming.

UPS came to pick up my ipod now I can track it online, which I am having problems with as I think I wrote the code down wrong, hah :(

Anyway, less than a week till I go back to college..hope the weather isn’t as hot as this. 2 years ago

Changed my bed covers today, got the rest of the day to do what I want, i’m just going to chill out infront of the TV and laptop, maybe abit of gaming as well :)

Waiting for someone to come pick up my ipod, would be great if they came today :) 2 years ago