I feel sad today…very sad
I didn’t stop thinking all day long about my life, my values, my goals, my beliefs…
I have been asking myself : Am I superficial? Is my life superficial? Did I misunderstand the life? Am I empty person?
I feel that when I talk to him…I feel that I am down, very down…I am stupid, ignorant, enable to think deeply…I feel helpless! Am I really that kind of person? How could he make me doubt of my beliefs? Why do I loose confidence while discussing with him?
He hurts me! He make me suffer, feel sad and upset! I got attacked by his judgments…His words were so bitter that I want to cry.!! Ooohhh, how easy for him to say all this. He has now idea how it hurts me. He is cruel and I am sensitive creature!
How much I am willing to take a rest from him, to stay away from him. But, he doesn’t allow me to breathe and I cannot forget him…
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I was spending enormous amounts of time thinking about him, but I realized now how wrong I was. Instead of wasting time by thinking of their lovers, women have better to add value to their lives by learning, participating in interesting activities…
It is question of self-respect rather than selfishness!!!
I have been loving him for about one year, however he doesn’t love me back…I tried everything to make him like me : gift, nice messages, cooking for him, visiting romantic places together, worrying about his health…Enough !! I am forgetting myself, my family, my friends because of him !! I realized that what I did doesn’t change his feelings and will not change them. I decided to give more interest to myself, to do what I like, to be myself. Whatever he think about me, stupid or sensitive too much or shy or very serious and tense person…it doesn’t matter…This is me, and I will not try anymore to change to make him loving me !!!
So, I will not hurry to reply his calls and mail. I will no more write long mails to him. I will not tell him everything I did. I will keep him waiting my answer to his request… A hard works to do, but I am willing to be less available to him !!
