be a good mommy

It was my son’s 8th birthday day party on the 14th and we had 3 friends spend the night, made smores in our outdoor “fireplace”, played games, ate junk food and watched GI Joe. Then the next moring we went to the science center and spent 2 hours there (OY). My son informed me that it was the best birthday EVER. I think that I can put a check mark down, at least for this month, for being good mommy. It puts a smile in my heart for him :)

Tonight, my two sons and I attended my eldest son’s BINGO night at school. We had a really great time and raised some money for the school. I can now add “gambling” to one of my son’s growing addictions. Yay me!

love my children everyday to the fullest no matter what and continue to put them first.

One of the most important things I can do for my sons is to spend time with them. In lieu of gifts this year between my cousin & our boys is that we are going to travel up north to Flagstaff, hang out, visit the Lowell Observatory and do some other cool stuff (not yet determined). The best gift I can give my boys is myself and show them how much I love them, and especially NOT with material things.

This is probably one of the most important things on my list and it’s one that i will never ever stop doing.

I am expecting my first child in March. I am scared to death. I will be doing it on my own. I am trying to take good care of myself now. Eating right, trying not to stress… I know the basics of babycare. I just want to make sure I can be the best mommy I can. I want to have a healthy happy baby that will grow up to be a happy adult. I guess that is what every parent wants.

I am really trying to make him understand that I’m not leaving. I’m here to stay and I’m here for him as well as for his dad. I love them both so much..but it seems like the closer I get to him, the more he pushes me away. It’s killing me it really is. I just don’t know what to do or say anymore…I just want him to know that I love him…it just seems like he doesn’t want to hear it. I’m really trying to keep faith and a prayer in my heart and I’m hoping that God hears it. This is my true wish for our little family.

MY SON IS DUE ABOUT TWO MONTHS FROM NOW!! I’M ONLY NINETEEN, BUT I’VE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS TO HAPPEN EVER SINCE I FOUND THE MAN I WANT TO SPEND THE REST OF MY LIFE WITH! I CAN’T WAIT, AND I WANT TO BE THE BEST MOMMY IN THE WORLD.

I live in a state of “super moms” where if you are not part of a mommy and me aerobics class or a neighborhood mommy club that goes on twice a week outings with their kids, you are considered to be a boring, neglectful, and just plain uncaring mommy. The normal household here consists of two (at least) kids, possibly one on the way and more twinkling in daddy’s eye, a daddy that works way too much overtime (at least that’s the normal excuse for why they aren’t home), a mommy that wasted four or more years of her life getting a degree she’ll never use because now she stays at home breeding children. I am not normal because there is no daddy in my home to “bring home the bacon” so I work full time. Right there are two strikes against me according to law here. But… I am coming to realize that spending every waking moment with your kids isn’t what makes a good mommy. I split custody with their dad so there are days when I don’t even see them. There are days when all the kids do is watch t.v. because I feel like crap when I wake up. There are days that they are out of control (seemingly) and spend the day playing inside because I’d rather die than let the public see the way they’re acting that day!! But, at the end of every day I am with them, I read them a story, sing them a song, tuck them in, kiss their little heads and tell them I love them. And…no matter what kind of day we had… one full of shouting and time out or one full of outings and picnic lunch…they tell me they love me too. They are both so smart and articulate, well mannered (as in please and thank you), spunky, loving, affectionate… the list goes on. I think I am a good mom…on my way to becoming a GREAT mom. On second thought maybe I’ll keep this goal here. It will be one of my life’s ongoing goals.

two good things came out of my marriage. gregory and caydence. i know that just because he’s leaving doesn’t mean i am any less of a mommy. in fact, i think i’m better for not trying to hold on to something that 1. isn’t there and 2. is bad to have the kids around. they don’t need to see us fight all the time. so i guess the biggest question i have for myself is, “is this really what’s best for them?” and i think it most definitly is.