He’s not a she, let alone a full blown physician. He’s a PA. But at least I get seen tomorrow morning, and not sometime in march or april. Plus a pap and physical… Joy.

Not only is my calf bothering me tonight, but it’s sensitive to the touch. Like a terrible bruise with no visible signs… Tomorrow morning. Tomorrow morning I’m doing this.

i keep putting it off. i will do it today.

Works up big $$, too. I got good insurance, but it’s usually the dental that sucks, and you spend like over $300.00 in no time! Got to be done, though, and having little cavities taken care of supposedly eliminates the likelihood of a root canal.

bit off a cought think it is turning into a cheast in fection cant seem to shift it

I finally went and saw a Family Doctor for the first time in years. She’s the first I’ve had since I moved back to the Twin Cities from Fargoa few years ago. I was a little annoyed that Medica assigned me a primary physican, but I figured I’d schedule an appointment and give her a chance. She’s awesome. Very personable and friendly.

I scheduled the appointment to get a couple moles checked (she wasn’t worried about them), and to get some EMLA cream to help with laser facial hair removal. She gave me the prescription for it, so I’m happy about that.

As long as I was there, I asked about getting a new med for anxiety and about getting my Cymbalta dose increased. I guess I’m on the max dose of Cymbalta already, and she said she wasn’t going to mess with my psych meds. I’m gonna have to see my psychiatrist about those. I figured she would say that.

She asked a bunch of questions about my history, so now she knows how much of a basketcase I am. She didn’t seem all that put off by it, which is good b/c I would probably be uncomfortable with any future appointments.

She found out that I have a history of cutting, and I’m on a stay of committment. She asked me for my social worker’s name and number. I asked her why…”so you can tell on me?” She said no, but if I went in here with a huge gash that she had to sew up, she would have to say something.

Fantastic. Someone else in the mix that is watching everything I do. I still really like her though.

SCREAM

I so need to see a Dr. Oh man, I need to. I just can’t seem to find the time, I’m just so busy and when I am not pushing myself to do and do and do. Well, my mind thinks to much and then it affects me heart {not a reason to see a Dr}...

I just really need to make and keep an appointment. It’s not the making that I am having issues with. It’s the keeping, finding a time that I can go. I mean by the time classes are done and work is finished I find it’s late in the evening and what doctor is open at 8. NONE.

Things will slow soon and I’ll do this. Hell, I have no choice now.

I had the appointment with the endocrinologist at the University of Minnesota today. I think it went pretty well. He asked me a crap load of questions (especially since I’ve been taking hormones on my own for over three years), and did a pretty thorough physical exam. He wanted to make sure that I was aware of the risks, and is going to forward his notes to my psychiatrist to get the ok from him first.

He was curious how I determined the dosage of estradiol and spironolactone I’ve been taking. I told him the trans community is pretty well networked, and we get to see what everyone else’s endocrinologist is doing. He kinda smiled. I guess he’s going to keep the meds as I have been taking them, but add another drug to the mix. He said that spironolactone blocks the action of testosterone, but doesn’t inhibit it’s production. The new drug he’s adding is Norethindrone (brand name: Aygestin), which is a progestin. I’ve done my share of research, but I had never heard of it before. Interesting.

If everything goes well, he said he’s going to just call the prescriptions in for me, so I don’t have to go in for another visit. He ordered a blood panel to baseline, and sent me on my way. We set another appointment for three months out. I can’t wait to get the scripts!

When was the last time you had two doctors in the same exam room as you? Like never.

Monday I had my first endocrinologist appointment with a fellow, after over three years of self prescribing hormones. It was setup by the staff at HCMC while I was in the Partial Hospital Program there. They kinda freaked when they found out I was taking hormones on my own. It’s funny how absolutely amazed doctors are that you can get anything off the internet. =)

Well he gave me the usual run down of questions about my health and whatnot. For some reason he seemed fascinated by me. He then told me that nobody at HCMC really had a background in transgender treatment, and that he needed to refer me to an endocrinologist in the program at the University of Minnesota. He then asked me to hold on a moment while he consulted with another doctor.

They both came back, and the second doctor basically said the same thing. I thought it weird that there were no experienced endocrinologists in such a big hospital. The Program in Human Sexuality at the U has one of the biggest and best gender clinics in the nation, but it’s weird how everyone in the state refers trans stuff to the U. It’s like they have a monopoly on us or something. Where the capitalism? Where’s the competition? =)

Well he setup the appointment for me before he even said he was going to do so. I told him that the time conflicted with DBT, but he said it was just a one-time intake. The appointment is for tomorrow. That is unheard of fast, but it turns out that it was b/c of a cancellation. I called the appointment desk after I left to try to reschedule, but the next appointment wasn’t until May 18th. Thanks but ‘I’ll just keep the appointment’ I told her.

I just thought it weird how fascinated they both were with me, and that there were two doctors in the same room. Weird. I can’t wait for my appointment tomorrow though.

Are you Happy now… {PINCH}

I promise to call on Monday, I will look for the results today so I can take them to the Doctor and drop them off so he can peruse them before he sees me.

Better….?