find love

im 15, and have had little luck with any form of love. i eneded up goinf out with a load of random girls, none of which lasted very long; all i want is love

I want to find someone with SA like me… Life ain’t easy and it sucks even more trudging along all by myself.

Hopefully that special one will show up in the next few years. I hope.

So while logging into MSN, this article caught my eye.
Most of them don’t apply as they assume previous dating history but I have to say, 1 is spot on for me. I jut don’t get about enough. As it were…
The trouble is, I just can’t get over feeling like people aren’t that bothered by me and that I’m a bit of a trial to spend time with, despite what might seem evidence to the contrary.
The article suggests finding a ‘partner in crime’ to go out with. Well yes, I’d love to! But most people my age have already found their life partner in crime and the place I live is populated by cliques of people who’ve generally grown up together and already have strong bonds and don’t want/need an addition. That last bit genuinely isn’t an excuse, it’s fact.
Oh I dunno. I’ve just suddenly come over feeling all crap having felt perfectly fine for ages (I know I posted on this just the other week but I wasn’t feeling as crappy as I do at the mo) and this is always the goal I come back to when I’m down. I guess it’s because things would be much better if I had Someone to give me a hug and tell me everything will be OK.

With each woman I meet, and with each date I make, I go on the hope that one of them will eventually be with the one I will build my life with.

And with every relation that does not work out or that ends, I know that I become better by learning from it, and with every woman that passes, the one that I have yet to meet becomes more cherished, for all roads lead to her.

brutally honest, I’m feeling sad about this one at the moment :(

about my 5 year plan.

How wonderful will life be now that I’ve removed him from my home, hopefully for good. Really, trying to talk myself out of my insane urge to call him. (he doesn’t love me, he loves her….he is POISON)

My baby boy will be moving out in three short years. I don’t wanna be like my mom was with my brother and hold onto him and hold him back from living his life but I panicked at the thought of him being gone. I’ll be here with two small children but no L.

I’ll have a successful business…it will grow lovlier and more profitable, turn gradually into my vision…I’ll cook and clean a lot, noisy house, kids, holidays, I’ll get a car, maybe a house, maybe I’ll go back to school, my little ones will start school. Backpacks, lunchboxes, school clothes, all over again.

Best not to bring anyone into my life (even on the off chance that I’d actually meet/find someone). My oldest would be much happier without anyone new.

It sounds nice. I’ll be busy, like now, and more so. I will work very hard.

Noone to share it with. Is that terrible?

By the time I’m healthy and stable enough to think about meeting someone new I’ll be a wrinkled old woman….nearly there now.

I just long for him because he’s at arms length. I’d be miserable. I know this.

So lonely…that’s what gets me in trouble no doubt.

i generally think of myself as a fairly confident person but i guess when it comes to this i realise i’m not. i feel uncomfortable letting someone know me so well because i’m worried they’ll find out i’m not as cool as i’d like.

I want love but it’s impossible
a girl like me lol the elton song. I’m not pretty enough for love so the bottle is for me.
Men have hurt me for way too long but I still want love.

Hi,

I am Shalabbh Kaushik 26years old from delhi (Rohini).

I have my own Export Business.

I am very soft hearted person so I am looking for long term relationship with nice girl. There are some good or sad moments in everyone life. I am also not different one from all of us. Looking for some one who can share and with whom I can share my feelings, spent some time, relax and live rest of life with some kind of peace. So if you are interested then please contact me on my ID or Mobile.

E- Mail :- Shalabbh_kaushik82@yahoo.co.in

Mobile :- 9210582965

I often get these wild crazy crushes on people that make me feel 14. I’m a sucker for a pretty face and when it’s combined with a gorgeous, kind, funny personality, well, who wouldn’t be drawn in.
The trouble is, as with life in general actually (the majority of this entry could equally be filed under Fight The Fear), I often feel like I’ve got a bit overexcited, a bit giddy and a bit full on and immediately back off for fear of, well, I don’t know really. This can happen without even having to have had any feedback from anyone, it’s almost as if there’s an excited puppy inside me gambolling about, jumping and panting, wanting to play, who then gets spooked by something imagined and goes and hides in a corner.
Again I guess it all goes back to not wanting to be made to look stupid, which must in my head equal lack of respect and rejection.
There are a couple of people I’m fond of at the moment, people who for whatever reason excite and attract me and make me think I’d like to spend more time with them but I’m full of reasons why it’d be pointless to even try. So I don’t. And this goal remains just that, a goal. Not a reality.

note I realise this sounds all a bit depressing, but actually I’m in a really good mood. I’m just getting more and more ticked off about this (about me) so want to put it all out there. Carry on… ;)