Do something different or new everyday

I wasn’t sure which of my goals to place this under (I realised that I do not have any sort of “Graduate University” goal, I suppose that is because there is not a doubt in my mind that I will graduate University….Maybe I need the “Figure out what the hell I want to do with the rest of my life goal”.... This could have been about procrastination, putting off chosing a major/a minor and my quest which culminates in finally doing so today. I am not certain. I do know that I have never declared a major or a minor, for that matter, in univesity before, so atleast this could be counted under this goal… All goals are kind of inter-connected… One thing causes another etc etc… If nothing else, they all have something to do with me.

I need a journal goal. A one setence journal goal….... That is too short for me. Just a journal maybe. A 43 things journal… I will add that when my hair pulling goal is done aka where I have been ranting about my day thus far! ^_-

I love philosophy, and International Relations deals with International issues, and I like International cultures and such… Honestly, I am not sure which career I would like…

Luckily, though this is new today, I can change my major and minor as ofte as I like!.... I’m not so certain that’s as great as the exclamation point implies…erm.. exclaims,... but I do know that I still have time to figure things out. This is the only life, that I know of, that I will live, and I want it to be lieve to the fullest no matter what I do…. I just need to do some “soul searching”... real HONEST soul searching…. The difficult kind which makes me question my values and wants and not just that which will please other people…I need to consider potential jobs, but most importantly, my happiness…

There is a sort of park near my home. There is a trail that leads into a wooded area. I would always stop short, because of the moquitos (or so I told myself) and did not continue on. But today I went beyound those trees and as far as I could walk. Over two bridges and to the end of the trail… a stream of water. To the left was still, shallow water with trees growing out of it. There are trees with knees here and I climbed over the fallen trees on the water. It was so peaceful and beautiful. I remember thinking to myself, as I left my jacket on a nearby tree, that I could drown. I kept imagining these as my last moments for some reason… I imagined my mother being upset. Of course I was over-reacting in my mind…as I imagined my mother might… as I imagined the end to my story of life… I climed the broken trees and I felt alive. My foot went crushing through a hollow log, but I just jumped onto the nearby island. I got a few battle scars, but these I treat as medals of honor. So far alone was I.

As I walked back, fully alive thank-you-very-much, I screamed as loud as I could- CARPE DIEM! and other inscrutable shouts. As I walked back towards the entrance I realised I was not alone as a lady and her children veered away from me as I neared. Oh well… guess I wasn’t as alone as I had thought…

And, well… just to mention it….On the way to the trail, I had see two groups of boys… Maybe it was one of their birthdays because 18 was written on the back window of the car. One of the boys was shirtless in a tiny little bathing suit and the other clothed… then a second pair of boys, one very tall boy with blond hair in short running shorts and another very short boy with the local high school emblazoned on their shirts… the short boy carried a shovel. It was odd and my thoughts traveled to time capsules and barried bodies… I still wonder about that shovel… maybe they were just planting a tree?

Tomorrow I will get up earlier and if I am unable to control that, then I will make sure to get outside and explore that secret path in the park and I will try again to set up the N64 or do something creative. I will attempt to get along better with Ben (this can go along with the “be the best sister I can possibly be” goal)... I might also work on my Thai scrap book… and try to Finish reading “The Sun also Rises” this will be a depature from my lazy summer days.

Wow, amazing new thing we heard about. Taking a detox foot bath with an ionic cleanse machine. You see pictured of other people taking the foot bath and the water turns from clear to brown, black, or green (depending on which internal organs you are releasing gunk from) and then the after pix of crud in and floating on top of the water. DISGUSTING, but it really works. I did one Wed and the water turned brownish/orange with tinges of black and green- so most of the internal organs were detoxing. Even saw some black flecks in the water which they tell me is heavy metals coming out. It’s a visually stunning display of all the toxins in our bodies waiting to come out. Better in the bath water than in me is all I have to say!!!

I got a new bike a few weeks ago and shipped it here from Oahu. Haven’t ridden a bike much for about 8 years so this was a first. I guess as I am getting older the idea of falling off and the time it takes to recover makes it less appealing. But the Tour de France has been an inspiration!

I did something new today. We celebrated our 10 year anniversary with a nice dinner out at Bubba Gumps. We also spent the day in a training class with a wunderkid from Kansas who was teaching us the latest procedures, shortcuts and info on our QXCI/SCIO biofeedback device. So instead of sitting on a nice beach sipping mai tai’s, which we can do any day, we sat in a hot classroom expanding our knowledge of a wonderful, fascinating and powerful program to relieve stress, pain and promote relaxation.

Photos coming soon.

Today I didn’t actually do something new. But the cast of my hand was (finally) taken off and then my hand was x-rayed again and examined. It’s not bruised, only sprained pretty heavily. Anyway: when this cast was taken off, my arm and hand felt so strange, as if it wasn’t really mine. Well, it was, that’s what I realized once the pain kicked in again… But it was so fascinating to feel this and to finally be able to use it again. It made my (very rainy) day. ;-)

We went to the beach today, which my husband and I usually don’t like to do. But our daughter does and we enjoyed seeing he play in the (cold) water. It was terrific. So even though I couldn’t go into the water, I had a really good time.

Today I had some ice cream. Well, not thaaaat special. But I had it at work. And I was actually busy. And I asked someone else to help me, so I even got another person into this as well. And I just stopped what I was doing, putting everything back, asked my collegue who was supposed to help me to come along and went downstairs to have some ice-cream. And it was so incredibly nice – especially in that company!

A bit out of the need of something to do after work (since I can’t do that much with one hand) but also to just relax a bit I went outside somewhat earlier today. It was very hot and I sat down in the shadow, reading in my book. It was lovely! It was for only a few minutes but it still felt great before going home and meeting my family. And a much better alternative to spending this time in the lab, waiting until it’s time to go home!