start painting again

I am dying to get going on this and have very little time left….. I need to get the next week done and at least draw out my canvas’

I have completed 3 paintings. All of skulls… The first one flowed so natural and it was right on par with my usual style. Then the second painting I did… I couldn’t get any of the colors right and then I got frustrated and decided to follow my old painting teacher’s advice. I stood back for a moment and then walked away for 2 weeks! I picked it up last night and it flowed out. I love it… it still smacks of my usual style but it is so smooth and not dark at all. The last painting was really small. Its a yellow skull with purple flowers. I need to get super gaudy frames for them. I feel so alive!!! I am working on two other paintings: a painting with hearts, birds, flowers, and my daughter’s hand print (for my mom’s b-day) and the last in the skull series. So excited to get started on it! I’ll add the pictures when my camera is fixed! :-)

Im working on an idea for a set of 4 pictures, part art, part therapy…. Cant wait! And when they’re done they’ll go above my bed… now just need to get my real ‘work’ out the way so I can make some time to sketch out my canvas’.

Im excited!

When my boyfriend (and first real love) broke up with me, I decided I wanted to start painting again. I needed to do something purely for me which would nurture my soul and make me happy. I haven’t painted since my A’levels but I know how fulfilling it will / would be.

So I went out and bought a few canvas boards…. and that was 9-10 weeks ago and I just cant think of anything to paint. Everything reminds me of him…. and although I feel like this could be very therapeutic for me if I just worked through it and started…. I just don’t know how to.

I went and bought all the supplies I needed. I could use a few more paint colors. I had forgotten a lot of technique when I sat down to paint. I learned on oils and have always loved oils. I finished my first painting “puppethead” It totally is creepy as ever, yo! But when I set outside to dry it fell down on the ground… paint side first (of course) and had dust and plant matter on it… I am gonna wait for it to dry to remove it. o noes! I have an idea for my next three paintings.
I love skulls and I love dia de la muertos art. SO I am painting a series of three skulls with flowers in the style of dia de la muertos. It’ll be a big change because I usually do super dark paintings.

X] I forgot linseed oil, ugh!

the reason I’m not doing it is because we moved my space from dowstairs to upstairs and a lot of my stuff got shuttled to storage… I’m almost settled in.. But the other thing is I got a service dog and haven’t paited since I got him. He’s supposed to enable my life but for some reason I haven’t done it since he’s come into my life.

When I said ‘start painting again’, I guess in my head I meant ‘start painting good, arty, intellectual stuff again’, like the stuff I was doing on my foundation course about abstract expressionism and minimalism and flatness blah blah blah

Not silly paintings of a cute Neptune (he was designed when my boyfriend and I were listening to ‘Sea King’ by Eisley) but thats what happened anyway and it’s a painting, so it counts, right?

Like many artists, I get my greatest inspiration from the darkest times in my life. During those periods I was really creative and motivated to put paint to canvas. I have been so content lately that I just can’t seem to find any inspiration. A woman at the framing shop once said, “If you can produce this kind of work at a low point in your life, imagine what you can do when you’re happy.”

I have tubes of paint, tons of brushes and so many blank canvases. I just need something to inspire me but I don’t want to be in a funk to do it.

I want to start painting AGAIN. The reason I am not doing it now is only because my boyfriend, with whom I live, thinks that we don’t have enough room in our apartment and that I will get paint on the carpet and he will lose his deposit. He even works for an oil paint company and has thousands of dollars worth of oil paints that he got FOR FREE. In order to do this, I must do another thing, move out of this apartment to a house.

I will take my painting seriously. After my time away in Europe floating around, I have decided to put work, ‘average conventional goals decided for me by OTHER people’, and people in general on the BACKBURNER. :)