be closer to my dad

He grilled today harder than ever.

But outside.
He doesn’t just like to grill… it’s like a passion for him. He gets really excited and likes to grill multiple things at one time.
He likes to leave the grill sitting outside hours after he’s done.
Like he wants to show it off.
But he never cleans it.

He’s a funny man.

He’s my dad!

: )

He knows more about me now than he has in my entire life.
Because I let him!

I really dont care about him anymore. So im taking this off my list.

I don’t how to be closer to him. If anything, I feel farther from him than when I made this list.

so i tried my luck a few months ago and texted my dad “hello.” lo and behold, he could not only read the text but effectively text message me back as well! now i text him about 3 times a week with brief messages like “how are you?”, “hope you’re having a great day!”, or “i love you and miss you!” this is such a great aspect of technology for me. what was once a dead or one-sided relationship is now a live, bidirectional one.

is insanely immature. we’re very different people and we often disapprove of each other’s decisions, but i don’t think that should stop us from getting to know one another.

I called him and we met and had a cup of coffee… We talked a lot about everything very sincerely. Then we met a couple of times for different reasons like lend a book or do some shopping together… I don’t even know why we didn’t talk for so long. It seems that he didn’t call me because he’s still feeling some sort of a guilt (and it has reasons). And I… I don’t know why I didn’t call. The most important thing is that I finally did it, and now everything’s fine.

We had a fall out. And to be honest, it’s not something I think I’ll ever be able to forgive him for. Everyone should give their dad a chance, but if he hurts you as much as mine has, maybe you’re btter off without him.

Still doing pretty well. We’re emailing regularly and I’m going to send him a picture tonight, when M gets home.

Doing better. We seem to be emailing more, at least.