Quit Smoking

Last cigarette around 3am on 2/5/12. Date night with Alex. 1 day ago

I smoked half a pack of cigarettes yesterday because I was drinking and really tired. This is hard. 1 day ago

Still haven’t made an appointment with my doctor. On my list of things to do today. 2 days ago

Today I believe it is safe to say I have mostly adjusted to the 2-cigarettes-a-day ration. Just in time; tomorrow, I go down to one. That, I think, may be harder.

My mother insists that the munchies I’ve been having are a good thing, since I’m so scrawny. I’m not sure I agree. First, most of my munches are really unhealthy things like Doritos. Second, even when it’s something healthy like grapes, I feel sick and wobbly with my stomach so full, and my thoughts move slower.

Third, I disagree with her assessment about my weight. She and my father are both overweight, and though she’s been working on losing weight for a long time, I think that she naturally gauges another person’s weight based on what she sees/feels about her own body. (This is a pattern I’ve noticed in people for a long time now.)

According to the BMI scale and health charts proffered by the interwebs, I’m technically underweight, but just barely so. I feel healthy, though. And my bones are on the small side, so it seems to me that this should be factored into determining what an “ideal” weight is for me. Also worth noting is that when I do gain 10 pounds or so, my appetite diminishes before I’ve even noticed the change, and I quickly lose it again. Maybe this is a subconscious decision I make, and maybe it’s my body telling me that it actually prefers being scrawny. I don’t much care either way. Scrawniness suits my personality (slightly damaged pseudo-intellectual with a bunch of weird hobbies), and like I said, I feel fine and healthy when I’m a toothpick.

It’s all subjective. 2 days ago

I’ve tried to quit smoking 4 or 5 times now the past two months. Hopefully this is it. 2 days ago

It’s hard to keep a constant flow of will power unless there is a constant threat. I staggered for a couple of weeks then went cold and stuck to it. I do find value in it’s meditation purposes so can’t say what this will hold up once my jobs aren’t in jeopardy. In today’s economy we need strength. May God help us! 2 days ago

Wednesday, I had 4. Yesterday, 3. Today I am allowed 2 cigarettes, and I’ve already had both of them.

2c’s a day until Tuesday, when it drops to 1c a day. My last one will be Saturday. What was I saying before about deadlines?

I know I can get by just fine on 2 smokes a day. It used to be my normal amount. I just have to remind my body what that was like. And then again for one, and again for none.

I am getting twitchy. Seriously, my eyeball is physically twitching. Does anyone else experience that? What about a tightened throat? These are consistent withdrawal symptoms for me.

Solution: Distraction. Redirection. I just finished a book.

Oh look, Doritos. Oh look, season 2 of “House”.

::game face::
Again, let’s do this. 5 days ago

I continue to not smoke cigarette. Very happy and proud of myself. Been awhile since I felt that way. Starting to feel that if I continue in this path, I can conquer the world. Thanks eSmoke Depot. Been a great help with the best cigarette substitute! Ever!
I am so happy with your company, I will do tell anyone that would listen how I quit and whose help.

http://www.eSmokeDepot.com 5 days ago

That I actuary haven’t had a smoke since Tuesday nite been 3 days smoke free 5 days ago

That I actuary haven’t had a smoke since Tuesday nite been 3 days smoke free 5 days ago

I went 15 years, FIFTEEN YEARS without a cigarette. I hated smoking. I felt so much healthier, so much more in control of my life. Now that things are spinning madly about, I choose the worse possible coping mechanism. There’s absolutely nothing that smoking won’t make even worse. 6 days ago

There was an online course I desperately wanted to take. Extraordinarily pertinent. Elite, high-end. I don’t have a job, so I don’t have the money.

I made a rather impressive pitch and petitioned my parents to loan me the money for the course (loan, not give, so I’m back in debt again, but the Bank of Mom is interest-free). To sweeten the pot — and to demonstrate how serious I am about this course — I agreed to quit smoking as part of the bargain.

They gave me the loan.

I’ve actually been looking for some sort of outside excuse to quit. Besides all the obvious reasons, I mean. Something with a deadline, yanno? I’m good at self-imposed deadlines.

I have one pack left to last me the rest of my life.
I am resisting a craving even as I type this.
::game face::
Let’s do this thing. 1 week ago

By quitting smoking, I’ll save $400 a year. Hopefully that’ll motivate me. 1 week ago

Got couple eSmokes from www.esmokedepot.com to help in quitting cigarettes. I really hope these electronic cigarettes will help in my quest to quit. The guy at e smoke depot said it still going to take a effort but should help with nicotine and smoking habit. Wish me luck! 1 week ago

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