it make me feel crap about myself. And all the positive things I know to be true about myself I second guess because someone else is doing something or has something or is something I want to be, do or have.
I don’t like the envy that comes out when I compare myself to others. I should be able to be happy for people, especially friends… and sometimes I am jealous but what is more overwhelming is the sense of “so whats the point of me doing it…. i haven’t got there yet, they’re doing it… I cant do it, I’ll never get there….” which I then use as an excuse to not take action….
This rant has just come about because I saw a status on Facebook (I took myself off there for 8 weeks as all I did was compare my life to the rubbish other people put up) from my old assistant who is successfully shooting for publications that I want to be shooting. Meanwhile I spend my time on money jobs ( still shooting) to pay my mortgage. And so through comparing I feel my confidence in my talent slip….and jealously and envy rise up in me. I hate it.
Time for bed! Tomorrow is a new day and I have to live MY life and no one else’s. Hopefully I’ll forget my old assistants life and focus on my own.
Jul 09, 03:13PM PDT | 2 cheers | 3 comments
I think it would help me with feeling great and not feeling great
Jun 14, 09:05AM PDT | 0 comments
If I am truly unique… why do I keep comparing myself to everyone else?
Why do I worry about my work compared to others’?
May 16, 03:14AM PDT | 1 cheer | 0 comments
No matter how much I accomplish, I can’t stop doing this!! And I know I’m not the only one out there! We need to come together and be PROUD of ourselves and realize that everyone has their own journey! Of all my goals, this is one of the most important :)
Apr 21, 08:43PM PDT | 3 cheers | 0 comments
dananew is thinking a lot about the future
I don’t know about this goal…I added it a while ago and I think that it might be kind of pointless. Isn’t this fighting human nature? Aren’t we wired to compare ourselves to other people. I guess when I added this I felt that I was doing this too much. Now I feel like I’m pretty “normal.” I don’t really think that this is a goal worth any more consideration at this time.
Mar 26, 01:28PM PDT | 0 comments
I want to be four inches taller and fifteen pounds lighter. I also want bigger boobs.
Feb 17, 04:32PM PST | 0 comments
I compare myself to other girls all the time, and I always lose. I always see them as better than me in some way, and I think ‘why can’t I be like that too’ ...
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Jan 26, 12:35PM PST | 0 comments
There’s this girl that I am friends with. We got really close over the summer, almost to the point of dating. Nothing happened though. So she comes home for a few weeks over the Christmas break, and I’ve only seen her twice. We used to see each other almost every day over the summer. But what’s even more depressing, she’s been spending a lot of time with another guy that I work with. It’s like he’s taken the spot I used to have in her life. It’s really hard for me to deal with this. Last night she came to my work, I thought to see me. She talked to me for a while. Come to find out she just came to wait for the other guy to get off work so she could talk to him. How can I not compare myself with this guy?
Jan 19, 01:23PM PST | 2 cheers | 5 comments