get over my phobias

I suffer from a lot of anxiety disorders, but now I’m getting used to them: plus, most of them aren’t really affecting my life. The only ones I really want to eliminate are:
- Arachnophobia and Entomophobia: this is really ruining me, because there’s nothing worse than having a panic attack at school, in the middle of a lesson! >///< Every kind of bug… bugs me: bees, beetles, flies, butterflies ecc. The ones I really hate are flies, bees and wasps °A°’
- Pedophobia: I can’t be around kids. The minute there’s a baby or something I get really nervous, always worried that he/she might want to play or talk to me…
- Acrophobia and Bathophobia: heights and depths are terrible. One metre is enough for me to get nervous!
- Nyctophobia: I always want light everywhere I go, and I never go out when it’s dark…

I just touched / picked up a moth :D
Although it was dead, so it’s not all that fear conquering ¬_¬
And I had to make sure it was absolutely dead before I did.
Ah, now I feel itchy D:

Acrophobia – heights, just standing a few steps up on a ladder makes me uneasy, which can be difficult, since it means when ever I need to put something on my wall or go into the loft I have to get someone else to do it for me. I’ve sat up in the loft for an hour before because I was scared to come down.

Agoraphobia – crowded spaces/leaving saftey I’ve had this phobia for almost a decade now, and it’s probably gotten worse as time has passed. It’s probably the one I want to cure most since it really restricts me, but I feel that I’ll be losing part of my personailty too.

Anthropophobia – society/people Another biggy. The fear is now starting to affect my personality, at first I was just scared of being near people, now I’m starting to hate them. It’s really self-destructive, I hate people before I even know them.

Entomophobia – insects it used to just be spiders and bees/wasps, but then it was moths, then all flying insects, then all fast moving insects. So I only feel unthreatened of worms, snails, slugs and caterpillars. It is getting better though, although only towards moths and butterflies. I did some reserch not so long ago on them and I think that helped, just looking at the different species, the pictures etc. I even picked a butterfly up the other month. It’s just the way they fly/flutter around that terrifies me, and I’m constantly getting moths in my bedroom D:

Scolionophobia – school every kid’s dream phobia. This doesn’t really effect me anymore, now being 20, but a counsellor actually diagnosed me with this when I was in my early teens. I still feel unease whenever I see school kids in uniform. The thought of passing a school is just ugh.

Telephonophobia – telephones I can look at them, be in the same room as them and touch them, but when they ring I want to hide. This stemed from some bad experiences with phones in my teens and I’ll only ever talk on the phone when I know for definite who is calling. In the past two years I’ve only ever answered the phone for two people. I guess people would see it as a strange phobia, with how caught up in cellphones everyone is, so I’ve only ever told a handful of people. When people who I knew used to ring me and I didn’t answer, they’d take offence and didn’t believe me when I told them about my phobia, so now I generally avoid phones. I don’t think I’ll ever own a cellphone again, but I would like to be able to cope with answering the phone.

Thalassophobia – the sea when I was five, on a family holiday to Greece, the peddleboat we were in became stuck and my mother and sister had to get out and push, they couldn’t even see the ocean floor. I don’t know if that was the cause as I don’t remember the experience much, but the thought of it now terrifies me. I learnt to swim briefly when I was younger, but my complete avoidance of masses of water has meant I’ve probably forgotten. Water-related, I also get scared of drowning sometimes, like when I wash my face, that I’ll somehow breathe in the water from my hands, choke and then die. As simple as that. Sea-creatures are also a no-no. I think just the general idea of not knowing what’s down there scares me.

Tada.

i hate clowns. VERY VERY MUCH

I have been dealing with the following.
Agoraphobia – fear of leaving a safe place. The anxiety attacks that i developed have made this worse. I don’t like being somewhere I know I’m not as safe as in my own house. However, I do not want to live in that fear because i won’t explore the outer world and what kind of life is that?
Arachnophobia – the fear of spiders. I hate spiders they scare the crap out of me.I can avoid these but what am I gonna do if i see a tarantula or something. God I would freak.
Coulrophobia – fear of clowns. This one isn’t severe really it’s just I can’t be around them and it’s only the scary looking ones like IT or Jack the Clown. It’s just dumb I know it’s dumb so I guess I’m almost there with this one.
Hypochondria – a preoccupying fear of having a serious illness. This is pretty much what’s causing my panic and anxiety and quite frankly I think I am getting a little better about this because a week ago I was contemplating seeing a doctor for a cat scan due to some tingling in my head, I was convinced I had something wrong but the truth is that I would be in major pain if this were true.
Thanatophobia – fear of dying. This has never really been a problem until recently. It scares the living shit out of me. The thought of not being here anymore makes me sick to my stomach. I don’t know how to get rid of this I am 20 years old. I should not be worrying about this. It kind of started to scare me when my grandma got sick and she told mom she was scared of what was to come. And then Heath Ledger died and it made me really think about it. Watching The Curious Case of Benjamin Button did not help either. It’s gotten to the point where everytime I hear about death or dying I need to et up and move around and do everything in my power to forget about it. It’s the scariest thing in the world to me. I don’t know what to do about it this one is the hardest for me. I need help.

my fear of the darkness has been subdued a lot. i’ve been learning to drive to get over the accident, and some of my lessons have been at night time. it’s been really scary but also really empowering! and i can sleep without a light on sometimes too now :)

I sat on Brighton beach last weekend with about 7 seagulls less than a metre away from me. AAARRGGGHHH! But I survived. So it’s all good :)

clowns – due to watching ‘it’ when very young… and because they’re creepy
crows/rooks/ravens – due to watching ‘the birds’ when very young & my cat bringing in live birds when i was a kid
custard – i have no idea!
darkness – due to a car accident late at night

i hate being scared of all of these things, but particularly custard as it makes no sense whatsoever, and darkness as i can’t afford the electricity bills!

ack.

heres my list of phobias.

Coulrophobia- Fear of clowns
Symmetrophobia- Fear of symmetry.
Cacophobia- Fear of ugliness
Lygophobia- Fear of darkness.
Pupaphobia – Fear of puppets.
Mastigophobia- Fear of punishment.
Dysmorphophobia- Fear of deformity.
Mnemophobia- Fear of memories.
Ceraunophobia- Fear of thunder and lightning
Judeophobia- Fear of Jews.
Verminophobia- Fear of germs.

i’m practically Panophobic-but not quite. lol

im also obsesive compulsive which probably wont be a surprize to whoever reads this.

i am scared to death of wolves, but i don’t know why. i have a serious phobia of sharks, and because of that i am afraid of open water or deep water.