decide what to do with the rest of my life

Trying to find a college to go to is so difficult when you don’t even know what you want to focus in and decide on. I’ve been tossing things around for so long, I just need to try and figure out what I enjoy in life.

Considering acting…

Since High school I’ve been gradually realizing that the times I’m happiest is when I’m performing and entertaining other people and I get the biggest sense of accomplishment when I can force a smile onto the face of someone I can tell is unhappy and doesn’t feel like smiling.

But then I started to wonder, how do you make a life out of that?

So in college I started taking acting classes, you know, just for fun and I love the feeling of being immersed in a character and playing it out especially in improvisational theatre. I’ve been told I’m good at it and my entire life I’ve loved being on stage and on camera.

But, I’m worried I’ll need to be outgoing and able to market myself/ make good conversation in order to make it anywhere. . .and I’m afraid all my good conversations are reserved for my close friends and improv games.

i dunno what to do. how confused am i?!

so does philosophy, and psychology

Theoretical physics seems nice

I can’t even see myself 10 years from now.

But 40 years from now… I want a vineyard in the French countryside. A hacienda in Spain. Another in Chile. A farm in Sweden. And a beach-house in Malaysia.

That would be cool.