feel alive again

How do you do this? I don’t know where to start!

upside dwn!! dat’d b rite!!!

Hello,
I am new here and don’t even know what this site is. I just googled “I want to feel alive”. And maybe because death crossed my mind tonight, more than ever before. Now the thought is gone I want to know why it was there, am bloody annoyed about it. So I want to feel alive? again?
i used to think everything was beautiful.
now everything has sadness attached to it.
for no particular reason.

The spark in my life has been gone a long time.I’ve lost the plot and am looking for my way out of the woods.

I think ‘feeling alive again’ makes you feel like you’re a stronger person. It makes you want to participate in the real world and it makes you feel happy about that. And most importantly: it makes you feel happy with who you are.

In this past week, I have a lot of giggling and hearty laughter in my life. I have forgotten that that feeling of laughter truly makes my heart smile. This past 2 months I have had feelings of fear and anxiety from my public speech class and being ready to share more of myself. To not seeing my son as much as I used too. I am going to consider this goal complete for now. Feeling alive again will be an ongoing “thing” I will need to continue with, but for today, its complete.

Feel so miserable, the fuzzy fog covers my vision, I cant see the future, I still feel like dead, even people keep telling me there is no use to keep thinking about the mean of self existence, I can not find a character to be.

I should stop hating myself and let myself go from the past, to present, and see clearly who I am – the one full of guilt.

The time I want to forget the guilt, forgive myself, perhaps is the time I removed my trauma and be alive again.

But seems like I am doing a bad job on that. Trauma comes back once a while, I should move.

It feels like it has taken few years for me to emerge from my cocoon, into a butterfly. What the power of the law of attraction has done in this last 4 months for feeling as if I am alive and amongst the living. It is such a welcome feeling to have!!

Sometimes i feel all fuzzy, like my senses are dulled, and other times i feel great.
I’m sure all that caffeine and nicotine dont help.
i need to cut down.
Maybe its bipolar, wont go to the doctor.

I woke up and realized I wasn’t where I wanted to be. So I moved, changed, and started to live my life.