be a good wife

...is in a couple of weeks. I want to make him something special. I don’t have much money though.

a very good wife yesterday. My husband had run out of a necessary medication this weekend, and the pharmacy was supposed to call the doctor’s office for the refills our insurance requires. I completely forgot about ALL of this, until he mentioned something to me right before he had to leave for work. Doctor’s office never called back, so my husband wound up having to “borrow” a few from the pharmacy. It didn’t end bad, but I still feel like shit about it all—he depends on me to keep his medications straight and I screwed it up.

Sigh.

I went to pick out a greeting card for my husband, for our anniversary. With my upcoming surgery and all, we really cannot afford to do much, at least not what I had wanted to in the way of gifts. Now normally, I am THE BEST greeting card “selector”. I can find a card that fits perfectly, for any given occasion or person. NOT TODAY. UGH. The only one I found that REALLY hit on anything was a humorous one, and I really wanted a serious, slightly poetic one, ya know? So, I ended up getting the funny one, and another one, that was serious, but not exactly what I wanted.

Hmph.

Oh, and I have to plan a date for us, and I have no clue as to what to do. YAY! (note the sarcasm?)

is coming up on Sept. 15th. I have NO clue what to do for our 1st anniversary. It is important to me to make this marriage work, for both of us. I love my husband with all of my heart and cannot imagine my life without him.

when I was officially his wife…I am now ♥ and I think I’m a damn good wife! I never would have made it to be his wife if I wasn’t good at something lol (nothing dirty of course) lol but its been 1 month of officially being married & I think I can check this once “given up” goal as done!

I am not a wife yet, however, I want to start making an investment in myself and in my relationship now so that I will be a good wife to the man of my dreams. He loves me like I have never been loved and he deserves a woman who will adore him, and I want to be that woman.

I want to put him first, the way he is always putting me first.

TODAY, when he gets home from work, I will have our home clean.
I will listen more than I talk. I will not make him feel bad for working these extra hours because he does it for us. I will kiss him like I have been missing him all day, because I have..

I am not a wife yet. But I know who’s wife I want to be. He is this amazing, strong, hard working, handsome, compassionate man that melts my heart. I first noticed him when we were 13 and now it is so many years later .. and we are very much in love. It is so sweet to love my friend of so many years so deeply and truly. My love for him grows daily. I didn’t really think that there was only one for me until the timing of it all just brought us together in the sweetest of moments.

I want to be a good wife with all of my heart. And I do not think this pursuit starts after our vows are said. I think it starts now. By his love for me, I learn about love. He is real, he is honest and therefore I know that I can trust his words. There is something so deep in my heart that makes me never want to do anything that could hurt him.

This is so mushy! What can I say.. I am in love. The kind of love that fills your heart with joy and I can’t help but gush :)

I’m umming and ahhing over this. As my psychotherapy draws to a close I think about the usefulness in employing a third party to help us develop our relationship.

There are issues to be resolved but right now I feel we’re making progress on our own. Maybe when I go back to work and we have a little more expendable income I’ll revisit the idea. I think it could be really positive.

well… i do have to get married first, but I am determined to be an amazing wife. I want to be a great wife, && wonderful mom. I want us to be open with eachother, honest, && have lots of kids. :]

I know he always says “if your happy I’m happy” but I never believe him so I finally started cleaning and doing more for myself and he has been so much more help around the house and more happy. YAH!!!