Find and stay with a good psychologist/psychiatrist

Ok, I went on the Psychology Today Web site, found local women on my insurance plan, read up on them, and e-mailed three with a description of my immediate problem (and a vague description of my more general one). Now I have to call the two who have open slots. Unfortunately, a major part of my problem is a reluctance to contact strangers or use the telephone.

I think I finally found a psychiatrist that I like.

I quit therapy.
She didn’t help me.

Now I’m stuck
and I need help.

Being in therapy is REALLY beyond my budget right now, but here I am. The only reason: its so worth it. How could I confess my worries outside of that office, when they resemble things like “utter and complete worthlessness” and “total annihiliation” or “turning into a toad”? What if I confessed such a worry to a friend, and she somehow confirmed that my worst fears may be well on their way to being realized. My therapist, on the other hand, will look to the history and the imagery of the worry and try to place it in my psychic map to indelilable happiness. Now that’s what I call discourse!