be nice to my mom

So basically i have to be nice if i want nice clothes and makeup. and rides to places until i get my license haha. its going to be hard but i have to try lol

but i have to…

if i want to get what i want.

But we’re getting along well now and I haven’t acted irritated with her or snapped at her since I set this goal. I even made her some pretty soaps today, edited her English paper for her, and tutored her on how to improve her writing. She knows I’m her connection if she needs any help getting through this class. I think the problem before with us was triggered by a stressful situation and a very long car ride together.

Since I set this goal, the worst thing I said to my mom was “She didn’t” when she said “She don’t.” She does that all the time and it drives me nuts. And people probably think I’m an asshole for correcting my mom’s grammar when I’m trying to be nice to her, but she is going to community college now and getting ready to graduate, and I don’t want employers thinking she’s stupid or illiterate when she goes on an interview. I want her to have a chance.

I have to stop punishing her. He’s dead, and now she’s the only one left to take my pain and rage. It wasn’t her fault. She was pregnant with my sister here. Trapped. Look at the sadness in her face; she can’t even smile. It breaks my heart.

i was nicer than I usually am… she just wanted to talk and so I chatted with her. I got a little annoyed and tried to cover it up but it comes through anyway. I’ll keep trying.