I love M, and it is wonderful to have him home from his business trip. It does make me realize just how exhausting being together and “on” can be. I started to lose my sense of self and my own energetic boundaries a little this morning. He offered me the opportunity to go on a few errends and to his bodywork appointment with him. I’ve declined to stay home, take a nap, and regroup instead. Would be fun to go with him, but then my day would be gone. Better to enjoy the down time and be fresh for the afternoon. Proud of myself for this choice :) 1 hour ago
Gave myself permission to nap this evening and then woke up refreshed an excited to make one of our favorite simple dinners… Pesto pasta with soft boiled egg :) 14 hours ago
Going to run myself another aromatherapy salt bath. Striving to get back in the habit of enjoy this healing treat more regularly. Sort of threw me off my stride to move away from the condo where I had the delux soaking tub. Thankfully I’m small enough to be relatively comfortable even in our small apartment tub :) 1 day ago
Signed up to receive this morning. I’m so ready for the nurturing touch! 3 days ago
Really need to learn to keep my big mouth shut… and NOT share stuff with my mom! Ugh! I love her, I want her to be excited about my life… and she is good at getting on board when I’m already established in a project. But she’s damn good at shooting me down if I raise a fledgeling hope or idea. Not that she doesn’t TRY… but… again, just need to keep my mouth shut! 3 days ago
Took a delicious bath. Made it decedent with sparkling citrus water and a good paper back novel. Good times! 4 days ago
Woke up this morning before I was really ready. Thoughts of “I should get up and deal with housework” keep circling In my head. Thing is, while I honestly do want to invest in tidying my home, I am still tired *yawn. I think sleeping a bit more is going to do me the most good. Here is to waking refreshed…. 1 week ago
Left the house work and my sweetie behind tonight and took off across town to go visit with a friend I hadn’t hung out with in ages. She is one of my best friends, but I can count on one hand the number of times I’ve seen her since we moced last fall, when we used to get together at least every other week or so. She needed to spend the evening cooking up food for the next couple days as she is working long hours at a challenging new job. I hung out and ate water melon while she bustles in the kitchen. Wonderful to be able to talk in person for a few hours and catch up with each other! Totally worth the drive out there :) 1 week ago
I am so glad I gave myself permission to rest today! I nurtured myself through following my body’s urgings to simply sleep. Forgot how life altering a good 2.5 hr nap can be! Everything else can wait. I am stepping away from “productive” mode to reset and enjoy my life. 1 week ago
Tired of second guessing myself. Tired of making do. Tired of surpressin my desires! Tired of being too “pragmatic” to dream. Tired of accepting other people’s values as gospel and the way that is best by default. Tired of people telling me what to do. Tired of people telling me what is important, how to think, what is acceptable. Tired of letting them. Tired of being so quick to reassure. Tired of every bloody thing having two sides of the same coin. Tired of not just curling up and taking the time to be quiet and learn who I am, what I want, how I feel. Tired of feeling like something must be wrong with me if I am tired. Tired of fighting my less upbeat and “all good” emotions. Tired of thinking how I think. Tired of being held to such a high standard at all times. Tired of pushing myself to be beyond my current best! 1 week ago
I treated myself to a massage this morning – and it was pure heaven… a first for me, as I’ve never been one to have massage’s just cuz!
This was so worth it! I’ve even booked another one in 6 weeks time! :) 2 weeks ago
Bodywork and energy work make such a huge difference in my quality of life! I feel so well cared for and supported when I receive acupuncture, massage, crainosacral therapy, Bowen work, Reiki, you name it! High as a kite on positive energy right now after a fabulous fusion session with my acupuncturist this morning. She used Japanese style of meridian work + CST to bring me back in balance :) 2 weeks ago
this came about, and I thought in what ways do I nurture myself?
And this is so very much more than eating properly or getting enough exercise….(although these are incredibly important also!!)
So for me I will look for additional ways to nurture myself, my body, my mind, and my soul – this will be my new way to honour myself.
This may be one of the most important goals I’ve ever added! :) 4 weeks ago
Holidays are tricky for me as far as food goes. I understand the pull of tradition—my mom loves to make me custard pie from my grandmother’s recipe; it was my favorite when I was younger, and my dear little mama cries like a baby when she bakes it, missing my grandma. But this damn pie, with all its emotional entanglement, can be a little contentious these days: for one thing, I’m lactose-intolerant, so as good as it may taste, it does no favors for my digestive system. The other part is that typically I keep a vegan diet—except for food my mom makes. I love her dearly, but she stubbornly believes that being vegan is unhealthy, without having a solid understanding of nutrition. Something unfamiliar is worrisome for her, and she grew up on a typical mid-western diet of white bread, red meat, dairy, and mayonnaise-based salads. I know she means well, but concern for my health would be more warranted if my diet more closely resembled what I grew up on (heavily processed, low-fiber, lots of simple carbohydrates, few fruits & vegetables, high cholesterol, high saturated fat). Long story short, she doesn’t support my food choices, and Food Is Love, so turning down something she’s made ESPECIALLY for me is a pretty harsh blow.
Her sisters—who organize our extended family’s holiday gatherings—have a similar approach to food, meaning I have slim pickings when it comes to food during holidays. I tend to make a plate of the something approximating what I’d typically feed myself, and figure on balancing it out later, but sometimes this isn’t possible and my family would be offended if I didn’t eat at all. This has been one of those years—I didn’t have the option of filling my plate with something like green beans or salad, so my poor tummy is now recovering from a few days of grazing on cheese, crackers, and sweets. Uggggh.
The best bet is probably to start bringing a filling vegan dish, like mujadra, to share at these sort of gatherings. In the meantime, I’m cramming as many nutrient-dense vegetables into my craw as I can, hoping my guts will get back to normal ASAP. 16 months ago
