like what I see in the mirror

Everytime I look in the mirror, I wonder if it’s really what I look like. Sometimes I think I look OK. I asked my sister If i look the same as I do in the mirror. She said I looked “different” in real life. I’m starting to worry that I’m not as I am in the mirror. It’s making me feel so hideous! I know it doesn’t matter what you look like, and I’ve not usually worried about my appearance until last year, but now i just feel… so ugly. When a take a picture of myself it’s NOTHING ilke what i see in the mirror. It’s just so ugly. It’s disgusting. I know I must sound so depressed, but i’m just so confused!

I’ve never particularly liked how I look. I’m alright with that now. Other people say I look alright. Physically there are things I would like to change. What I hate most is how I view the person looking back at me. Most of the time I really can’t stand myself. That is what will really take time to change.

sometimes i may not like it,
but i accept it.
i am good with it.
cool with it.

i can look in the mirror and not hate myself.
i realize i have good and bad days.

i’m improving as much as i can.

what else can i ask for?
reconstructive surgery is in a few years.

i haven’t really even looked in the mirror in weeks.

i don’t have any desire to, because of what i see, but if all of that could change…