stop being so sensitive

I take things too personally a lot and let it eat away at me. I need to be stronger and take things less seriously. I think I first need to build more self confidence.

i dont think i can it in my character

I stopped saying sorry constantly for nothing whatsoever.I seem to have more confidence now and I feel so much less sensitive to what people say and what they think.

trying.

it pays to have much understanding. it makes your sleep undisturbed, it makes your life unloaded, it makes you breathe better.

i think, people’s way of doing things or saying things can be rooted to his personal history (maybe social orientation or family background)...and by knowing where he came from or how he’s brought up, makes it all easier for us to see through his imperfections, and makes us realize how lucky we are not to be that kind of person.

no one is an all-bad person…just that, not everyone can complement the person that we are or possess the character that we expect others to be.

you can never get rid of that initial “grrr or huhuhu” reaction…when not-so-nice stimuli come to your senses. but i’ve found a mature way of easing down that ultra high sensitivity scale. things have to be processed in the mind. i make myself believe that jokes are just plain jokes… criticisms are to be taken positively… mistakes should be lessons… and whenever people hurt me, i’d just choose to refuse to hurt them back. i’ll get on with my life, strong and continuing to learn to do better. i’ll stay happy, and unmoved. coz eventually they will a dose of their own medicine. while i’m off for a peaceful good life!

A friend asked me over to her college friends’ planned party. THe rest of the group wanted me in too coz they’re all my friends too (just that i had my own group during college).

then she said: “I think it would be fun if you’d come… you can be a replacement for J. who might not be back on the 28th..”

what i felt: “OUch!!!” since when did i ever become a replacement for someone. our other friends even called me an adopted member to their group. and she just called me a replacement – to think that we the closest of friends now. though she apologized, i just cant get rid of the word replacement.

how i reacted: at first i ignored it. i tried to. but i just had to tell else we’ll just end the call without really settling it down. so opened my feelings up after having talked about other things (i kinda sounded uninterested the whole time – coz i was really affected). when i talked about it…she apologized again…and over again. honest mistake.that’s what she said. and well…apology accepted. a small issue actually.i forgave her.

not bad right. i am sensitive…but that’s when i know somebody crosses that line they’re not supposed to invade. hurray to my reaction, i guess. mature enough not to cause a fight. =)

I hate that I’m so sensitive to everything. Why can’t I just drop things that have been done to me. I don’t understand why I keep replaying things over and over in my mind.

I need to stop worrying about what everyone thinks of me. I hate that I worry so damn much.

Somebody made me feel ugly today, and invisible. UGGGhHHH… He cracked jokes and made little rude comments. He used to not to do that. Just didnt like it. It’s pulling my spirit down.

I slept…thinking i’d feel a lot better. well, i feel a little better now. And, it gets me thinking.. why the hell should i care! His opinion and actions are not as significant as the ones shown by the people who knows me better.

I can let it pass. I’m a little affected…but I can manage. Moving on forward, life to me has been fairly wonderful. And I’m not losing this perspective for something or someONE i know isnt worth my time, my worry, my attention.

I used to fight back. Then i got tired of fighting. No i dont like arguments anymore, i dont like tension…i dont want to move around a smaller world. So i just shut up and shhhh. And at night i just cry and pray and sleep. I’ve been doing this, and i get to live on the next day feeling brand new. The problem is, when hurt emotions are piled up, and if something seemingly similar happens, all the suppressed thoughts flashback and my soul gets broken. Like today… i feel awful. And i read through the entries here. Now, i wanna do myself a favor… stop being so sensitive.