If I am not even going to try, why do I keep this goal?
This is one of those wish goals for me. I know I should do it, I can see myself doing it, but I just can’t bring myself to actually try to do it.
I am a night owl. What can I say?
I really wish I could just let myself go to sleep when I need to. It isn’t that I don’t get tired. School, studying, work, martial arts, volunteering… it takes a toll on me after a while. It’s just really hard for me to get myself to sit still long enough to go to sleep during the school week. I think part of it is that I get really lonely right before bed. I start missing my boyfriend, and thinking about whatever I need to get done. Next thing I know I’m lying there completely tuckered out, trying to fall asleep, but wide awake.
I am just not good at this. I suppose I shouldn’t really say that. I could do this, I just choose not to because it is hard. I should start over. Ok. I am going to shower now, and then go to bed. I have to get up early and I need to hit the sack.
I am going.