be responsible

Well…im off to enroll in skool! finally ….its funny after 3 yrs of not doing anything ..all i want to do now is….LEARN(:

I think i’ve pretty much gotten this goal down…i feel like im soebody pple can count on …the only thing is i dont really have any responsiblities right now..

Other than taking care of my dog and making sure he doesnt pee on the carpet(wich im still workin on;D) thats about all i have to do

Soo i guess i have to wait til i sstart school and see how good i do to call this thing complete<3

I have never been enough responsible in my Life…I have not shown any sense of responsibility in anything that I have done so far…

I have been an
1) Irresponsible student
2) Irresponsible engineer
3) Irresponsible person

May be I was a responsible son…probably :)...

Being responsible to myself is my first priority…

These are the associated To Dos
1. Wake Up early (Even on week-ends…before 9:30 AM)
2. Sleep Early (Before 12 mid night)
3. Have a healthy break fast.
4. Be responsive to my ideologies ( I have been deviating ..I never gave enough considerations before taking decisions-which actually means I have been ignoring my own thoughts on those matters)
5. Kill My Ego…When I say “kill my ego” ,I just mean to keep it within a reasonable level so that I can maintain relationships comfortably…Just to cite the most recent catastrophe due to my ‘superego’ – I lost an amazing company…a friend…In the sense I lost contact with her for at least a year…
This is what happended:
I met a friend after 3 years….We spent sometime together talking about small small things-chit-chats. I enjoyed her company more than she enjoyed mine (this is how I feel,and most probably it should be true). While it was time for me to say adieu,she asked me to keep in touch at least through phone. I said fine I will call you,I wasn’t serious I didn’t have her number…She laughed and said “you are lying you don’t even have my number and you offer to call me”...I pretended not to have heard her question..I just said …”see you sometime later ..somewhere..till then adios!!”
I don’t know why I didn’t ask her number...
I am sure it’s my ego…:((
6. Avoid mood swings…I mean occasional desperation.Why else should I be writing all these craps at 02:33 am ?
7. Be proactive …One of my ideal is to “live freely and let others live freely”... I don’t believe in guiding others/giving advices etc…We are all equals on this earth…I will try to make others better informed but will never impose any guidance or advice upon them.
Problem with this is that,while I abstain from making decisions for others they don’t usually reciprocate the same courtesy. I end up in the receiving end… I want to change this age old practice as well…

More details to follow..Going to sleep now…

it’s hard for me to be respensible T___T

cuz i forget things sooo easily

i’d tried writing things down but often times that i forget to read what i’ve just written

and now i’m usin my computer instead of studyin for the up coming exams…

I used to think I was, but now I know I’m not. I was very deluded and it has taken a massive amount to show who I really am. Big shame.

Because I’m an adolescent who always spends her time having fun and not taking care of important tasks. I need to balance work and play, and I need to start taking responsibility for my actions, stop being such a drama queen, and take care of what I need to. So I made this my goal to motivate me in the right direction.

What a difference a year makes. I’ve change alot in this one year that I ignored 43 things. I am definately responsible now. I may not be perfect in this respect. But I realize that expecting perfection is not really responsible either. Responsiblity comes from realizing that an undertaking has both ups and downs and that you will do your utmost to keep the downs at bay.

I guess i shouldnt ask this. and i have to make myself do this. I want to be able to rely on myself. i want to be independent!

Right now I’ve no priority or a sense what is important in my life. I’ve many dreams and problems. I can never focus on what’s important. I don’t know what will happen with my life but God has given me a map and my goal is to be responsible to carry out God plan.

Also, I want to be responsible of taking care of myself. I want to do things mentally that would make me feel good.

I envision once I achieved this goal, I will be a little more happier with myself, more organized, think & plan a head, and most importantly be proactive to all of life situation.

I will start with little steps:

1. Look at my To Do list everynight.
2. Spend 10 minutes after class to think of what I am responsible for. Such as, homeworks, study, paperworks, etc.
3. Every Night I will listen to 1 section of God teaching.
4. I will meditate for 30 minutes

These are the 4 steps I can do and I will start on it TODAY!

I wanna be responsible – have control over my life, my everyday activities, don’t have silly problems. I found myself not prepared for living on my own. How can I be independent if I even do not cope with cleaning my room and watering plants?
I have to think about what I’m doing, give it some common-sense, and stop waisting time. Now I start my everyday japanese lesson with an internet course. but what’ll be next? I have to switch to another “43things” thing or tidy my room, or sth, but not lay down with a detective story in one hand and a bottle of ice-tea in another. no no no.
and so on.