Be more high maintenance.

love urself as u would a very special friend

i’ve been tanning almost every day since i bought my membership, and i’m already a little darker! i just got my hair highlighted a couple of days ago and I LOVE IT. i’m so excited about it, lol. i haven’t been getting around to doing one girly thing everyday, but i’m trying. i’m also trying to break the habit of going into work looking less-than-great… the girls i work with are all so thin and pretty, and i just feel so “blah” around them… i just need to get up earlier and take the time to get ready.

i’ve been so busy that i didn’t get a chance to do anything until today. yesterday i purchased a membership to a tanning salon right on my way to work so that i can go after work every day. the place is so nice, it just opened a couple of weeks ago and they had this really great starter deal… i konw tanning isn’t exactly great for you, but i’m so pale and fake-tans (even the gradual moisturizer ones) look so bad on me. i went for my first session today (only for 5 minutes!) and i’m a little burned, but i think i’ll go back tomorrow. it’s so relaxing and i just feel better afterwards. yesterday, i also bought some lotion from bath & body works. the scent is called “tahiti, sweetie” and it smells sooooo good. i’m addicted to it now, lol.

i feel much too blah and frumpy and un-girly. i am transferring to a new college in the fall, so i want to use this summer to get myself back into girly-mode (i was for the most part, until this first year of college, where i’ve been unhappy and totally not-caring, hence the transfer). i’m going to try to do one thing everyday that is just for myself and my appearance. it sounds vain, but every girl needs a little pampering. and i just feel better when i actually take the time to pay attention to myself. i’ll try to update everyday with the little thing that i did.

Not necessarily with my handling of people and being high drama, but more with taking care of myself.
I don’t pamper myself enough. I want to use better products and lotions and such and actually use them on a regular basis. I want to smell nice and be soft and pretty. I want to do my hair every day instead of the little ponytail I fall back on morning after morning. I want to use face masks again and give myself pedicures and get professional massages and shave my legs on a regular basis.

So that is the plan.