get healthy and stay that way

I ordered a salad today. I just read the last entry I made on this goal and I can’t believe it’s been two months since I ordered a salad at a restaurant.

And just like last time, I brought the rest home in a box to eat later. I despise lettuce so much so it’s difficult to eat salads.

But I desperately need to.

I actually ordered a salad and a baked potato last night in a restaurant. And I made myself eat some of the salad without dressing. The rest I brought home to eat tonight for dinner.

I only bought greens, fresh fruit, and organic soy milk when I went to the store. And I have started keeping a food journal. I’m exicted about this. I’m glad I’m finally taking some definite steps to getting there.

I have tried eating healthy numerous times. I have been eating apples and bananas more often. I go through phases of yogurt and applesuace. But there is still a lot of work to be done. I’m guilty for buying the flavored applesauce that’s full of sugar. I eat a lot of granola bars—I keep those in my purse. Bagel bites and Cherry PopTarts are two of my biggest weaknesses right now. And Nutella. I go through phases of what foods I like. I was eating a lot of carrots but I got tired of them kind of like the yogurt and applesauce. And I get tired of granola bars too. I wish I could find more foods that I like, a wider variety. But I don’t try new foods very often. I have some oranges and grapefruits now; I am going to make myself try those. I feel like healthy meals take way more time and are more complicated to make, so I get lazy and go for the easy, prepackaged things, and frozen things that I can put in the oven or the microwave. I’ve been battling with food, eating, and my body image for a long time; this has consumed a large portion of my life. I feel like I have came a long way though. At least I eat now. And I know the importance of eating and eating healthy. I’ve learned a few lessons, now it’s time to put them into practice. I have seriously been considering giving up dairy products. I consume way more milk and cheese than I should. Those are huge, huge weaknesses for me. They have been for years. This would also mean giving up ice cream and chocolate and pudding…anything with milk in it…even Cheez-Itz and macaroni and cheese! But yogurt has to stay without a doubt. Giving up milk and cheese is going to be the hardest thing ever. Oh and I hate salads. I think lettuce ruins everything. I don’t know what I am going to eat. I just feel like I am so out of shape. I’m not overweight by any means. But I do get out of breath when I walk up the stairs at school and running on the treadmill for just 8 or 10 minutes almost kills me.