have an attitude of gratitude

I am soooo grateful for text machines and their phoning ability. I miss my boy but being able to text and call him is great

Today i am grateful for:

Llew – as much as we drive each other nuts.
Alisha – whom i can have a meltdown with and realise that tomorrow, it will all be better.
Dan – who is an asset as to how far i have come and how far i can go.
Nature.
The warm fuzzies.
That Q liked his shirt we picked for his birthday.

AND

A home cooked dinner that i didn’t cook.

I woke up sick this morning so not feeling too good…..

My daughter
LLEW
Great flatmate
The ability to make a decision and stick to it
My health (i could be so much sicker)

I walked to Waipapa
I got the grant for my glasses accepted
I have a great flatmate
Waking up to the native scenery
Someone made me dinner last night

Great dinner party with my old flatties (god i miss them).
Drinking good wine.
My daughter.
My self esteem.

I guess that gratitude comes naturally to me now when well but it is when I am in this ‘place’ that I need to sit and make a concentrated effort to list what I am grateful for. It stops the feeling of overwhelming negativity.

Today I really saw how far I have progressed. In the past when this cloud enveloped me I would be days of not coping, in bed, crying and not washing or eating etc.
The last couple of days I have had the cloud around where i have NO energy and my thoughts are not as healthy as I would like. I wanted to be motivated but didn’t feel it so I pandered my mood and lay on the couch with my computer. In the past i would have played games or watched a DVD, this time I cleaned up my 43t list!!! WOW so even when I was not motivated, I stayed motivated. It really shows me how far I have come :)

Sooooo I am grateful for:
~Loving myself
~Friends that are caring. Kitty cooked for a dinner party this evening and it was fantastic. It was nice to get dressed up to eat dinner and have adult conversation
~Boys who can see a future with me (Ryan is so sweet)
~My new job, I wasn’t sure I would cope but I love it. I am waitressing and I even got $5 in tips.
~My fantastic bedroom
~My laptop, I love it so
~43T I appreciate it soooo much
~Life, it is so great
~Upcoming birthdays and the potential for fun and lingerie…

My flatmate read to my daughter.
I am alive.
I have the ability to discard old stuff.
I have great friends.
I live in Kerikeri, New Zealand.

Nice day
Went fishing
Walked through the trees
Live in a comfortable calm atmosphere
Deck

I moved house
Slept in my own bed
LLEW
Nature
Green

Moving house to a very healing place
Sleeping in my own bed (hopefully)
Having lived with great flatmates for the last month
Living in Kerikeri
Meeting new people