Fall passionately in Love

it’s true. I love him SO MUCH. so passionately. so truly. it’s SO real. I can’t even describe. =)

Right now i am in love. Or so i think….but i have never been in love before now have i…or did i not know? Love it is such a confusing thing. I love my parents, i love my siblings, i love my friends, but that is not the same love as loving a boyfriend or husband is it? I have a boyfriend and we have been together for about 3 weeks, we met online, and he lives part time with his father down 7 hours away from me. But when we first started chatting all that was running through my mind was ”...Oh this is just going to be another one of those dumb stuck up wannabe boys who is going to flirt with me non stop and nothing is going to happen.” But as our talk progressed i realized no this guy was special. I didn’t need to do any wooing or flirting i didn’t need to say “You are so hot,sexy,ect;” as i had to the other boys i had talked with. We talked for 4 hours. And by that time i knew i was falling fast for this guy. He addmited by the 4th hour that he was falling hard for me. And so he asked me out persay since you cant really “virtually” date. But we are boyfriend and girlfriend and remain true and faithful to eachother. Now i have had online “bf’s” before. And it has been harmless fun but it never meant anything like this does. I am a bigger girl, yes i am overweight. So no boys are typically interested in me because all 13 year olds have running through their minds is sex , and sports. They don’t care about the REAL things,they are attracted to someone by their body. So no luck for me right now.

my last relationship ended in 2005. that was two years ago. i haven’t been in love since then. i told my friends, “i’ve lost the hunger” or maybe i am yet to meet a guy who would make me feel giddy with love. do i miss having someone? i am doing ok being unattached, but it would be great to have someone to hold hands with or kiss or just be with.