Say what I mean when it counts

I have an issue with making accurate points. I sometimes say things, and later realize that if I would have said it a different way it would have made more sense. I tend to say the first thing that comes to mind- really before it ever comes to mind. It’s more like I am set on default mode and I live in that state continuously. It’s really hard on my boyfriend because sometimes what I say hurts, or simply saying something I don’t really mean. The hard part is, I don’t know that I don’t mean it till later.

I find that sometimes, when the truth just needs to be told, and I know it’s harsh, I just can’t make myself say it. Sometimes people need to hear things that they don’t want to. I’m just so scared of what they’ll say after I tell them the truth.