trust myself

I’ve noticed that when i just listen to my inner promptings, the ones with no emotions attached, great things end up happening. I’m working on finding out how to make these promptings easier to recognize and louder. Sometimes i find it a bit challenging to hear the difference between my emotional fears and my still inner voice that tells me what i need to know. Pushing through these fears and learning to trust that voice is what i’m working on.

I think a lot of the chatter I need to ignore in my head is the voice of other people in my life.

What good is it to do something against your gut feeling? How good is feeling uneasy about something you are about to do? Certainly not worth the feeling that what you are about to say or do sits right with your values and even though you make a fool of yourself by not going with the trend, you are still a worthy individual who is at peace with his or her decisions. I say “I can trust myself that I am always going to find the right answers by asking is this what I would like to be known for? Is this aligned with my values or my need to be liked?”

I study a lot of stuff about this. It comes under other names but this is essentiall what it means. Trusy Myself.

I’m trying to pay attention to my initial gut instinct on things and then ignoring the chatter in my head that tries to talk me into changing my mind.

Through practice and observation. I’ve improved. Also through facing what was there to be faced.

I have recently met a woman that I am taking a class with. She is the teacher. Many people look up to her and she is supposed to be some wise genius but something about her doesn’t set right with me. I can’t explain it and I don’t know what it is. I tried to deny it for a long time and tell myself I was being silly. I wanted to go along with everyone else in class and constantly be singing her praises. But I have decided I need to trust myself. The feelings about her I have keep getting stronger. I think this is an opportunity for me to practice trusting myself.

..while sitting still in the car at night while it rained. the street lights casted shadows from the trees near-by and i was just laughing ..by myself.. gulping down a cup of strawberry yogurt. (might i add, it tasted so good!).

and i just thought.. in order to trust myself, i must know how to be alone with myself. -be okay with being me, alone, myself.

i’m getting there! :)

I think my intuition is excellent! Too often I am just scared to trust it! I need to trust it even if to others what I trust in seems aboslutely crazy!

Oh my god, soooo glad I did today. My supervisor tried to tell me not to bring an application to an hiring event. I think she secretly wants everyone to be miserable with her. So I told her (nicely) that I would always bring something on paper to an event like this; and sure enough they took my app with 90 seconds!
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