trust myself

to let go of fear and align with my trueself…
...to not fear my own potential, good or bad
because the good is deserving of a chance to be present and the world deserves its presence
and because the bad is perceived and i am in control of my negative thoughts

not sure i can set a date to check this one off, but i want to grow towards this

Im not ok with myself and I think this has a lot to do with the fact that I cant trust myself. Ive been in a lot of horrible relationships that ended up abusive and I think that has pushed my confidence down. I recently got engaged to the most amazing man, but I feel like: How can he love me if I dont love myself? I trust him more than I trust myself… is that even possible? Everything I seem to do turns out wrong with even my best friends leaving my side… how can I just move on and realize who I am and trust that that person is the best version of myself…?

if you feel confused, one thing to consider is the possibility that someone else is trying to manipulate you. I’ll BOLO and go with my gut.

myself is essential to my survival.

I’ve noticed that when i just listen to my inner promptings, the ones with no emotions attached, great things end up happening. I’m working on finding out how to make these promptings easier to recognize and louder. Sometimes i find it a bit challenging to hear the difference between my emotional fears and my still inner voice that tells me what i need to know. Pushing through these fears and learning to trust that voice is what i’m working on.

I think a lot of the chatter I need to ignore in my head is the voice of other people in my life.

What good is it to do something against your gut feeling? How good is feeling uneasy about something you are about to do? Certainly not worth the feeling that what you are about to say or do sits right with your values and even though you make a fool of yourself by not going with the trend, you are still a worthy individual who is at peace with his or her decisions. I say “I can trust myself that I am always going to find the right answers by asking is this what I would like to be known for? Is this aligned with my values or my need to be liked?”

I study a lot of stuff about this. It comes under other names but this is essentiall what it means. Trusy Myself.

I’m trying to pay attention to my initial gut instinct on things and then ignoring the chatter in my head that tries to talk me into changing my mind.

Through practice and observation. I’ve improved. Also through facing what was there to be faced.