Ok so I meet this guy my senior year. He was basically my first everything. Except kissing wise. Anyways I met him in show choir and I started hanging out with him alot. Everyone said he liked me alot but I always had to go to him. I slowly fell in love but surely do love him. He asked me out (3 months later) jan/15. Everything was going great excpet the fact I questioned his love. I always went to his house he never came over to mine. Basically i love him so much idc where we go or what we do. Until I started feeling as though i was nothing special. We broke up in may 15 2007. I was ok for awhile and I felt free but I grew strong hate for him because I missed him so much and he didn;t seem to care. I wrote him alot saying I was sorry. Anyways I deleted him from myspace in july when everything in my life went wrong. he had nothing to do with me until around october of this year.We hooked up and nothing more. 3 weeks later we started hanging out. holding hands kissing again.. basically were in a realtionship with no label now which is what we both need. My problem is he says he is scared of my dad. Some of my friends strongly dislike my ex others think were meant to be. I’m really sad thoguh cuz deep down IDK if he loves me. He said it first.. idk everything was going great until new years. He has alot of issues but i do love him but idk what to do anymore.. Idk how to let go.. I’m so scared i’m gonna blame myself. I need advice. Is there a way i can solve this befor leaving him again???
