stop planning and start doing.

You know what helps with this? Getting back on Provigil. I took it for a while with great success. Then I had this idea that I didn’t like using a drug to make me normal and went off it (though I kept up the Rx). Sure enough, I couldn’t keep things together. Without it, I cannot focus, my mind is muddy, and I never complete anything. Recently, I realized that I’m not winning this battle alone and started taking it again and, again, it’s amazing. I often wonder if this is what everyone else, my husband, my friends, my coworkers, feel like each day. I wonder if I do, in fact, need this to function and I wonder what that says about me.

Right now, though, I don’t care. I feel good. I’m getting things done and I feel healthy about it.

I had a couple of setbacks, but I think I’m on track again. First task, complete my masters project. I will have a draft done by the end of this weekend. Then I’ll have another week or two to put together the final draft and the presentation. Once that is complete (mid-May), I’m goign to start on cleaning my house which is a disaster because I hoard and am depressed and have been ill, etc. This will likely be a summer-long project, but it WILL happen.

So far, I’ve been better about this, but I haven’t reached a satisfying point yet. I wish the internet wasn’t so fun. D:

I finally started painting regularly (instead of just buying more canvases and talking about painting). I actually entered a couple of paintings in an art show and though I didn’t win, there are on display in a local gallery. Also, I started selling my jewelry at the same gallery.

There are dozens more projects I have on my agenda and I’m determined to act on them instead of just talking about them.

THERE IS NO TEST R U PEOPLEBLIND THIS IS STUPID!!!!!

I will never be able to do this…

When I start to plan things out too much, I feel I’m stalling. When I have so much on my mind to complete, I feel overwhelmed and end up not completing anything.

Lately I’ve been just doing things the second I think about them. “I should do the dishes”...and then I just walk over to the sink and do them. It doesn’t take as long as I think, and when that’s out of the way it makes me feel less cluttered.

I’m going to continue this method of just doing, because it’s been working very well for me lately!

I just realized that I have a goal to “Stop Planning and Start doing”, then one to “Get organized and Keep to a Schedule”. Talk about a contradiction! So,which is it? Which one should I do? In order to Get organized and Keep to a Schedule that would mean lots of planning and….doing of course. So, actually by achieveing that goal I’ll be doing this one as well!

Its way easier to plan to do something than to actually do it. I’ve been planning to lose weight for some time now,but to actual do it, is to take a chance on hope. I dont know if it’l actually work or if I will be satisfied witht he results.What if I waste all that time exercising, and I dont get the results I want? Sticking to an healthy eating program is the hardes part,specially with my ED…....