find inspiration

after trying so much energy to help others, I realize I must not forget to help myself. So I am trying to reconnect to my multiple sources of inspiration, and remind myself of these throughout the day.

Honestly, what right do I have to be so dispassionate?

None. I have everything: food, shelter, freedom, a warm bed, education, friends and family who love me. The world can be a really shitty place, but that’s all the more reason to appreciate how really, really lucky I am.

I have to do something. I’m really not enjoying much in my life these days. Sometimes I get depressed about the state of things – it’s hard not to – but it’s more than that. There are plenty of things to be glad for, like the fact that starting in september I have 5 months to travel wherever I want in Europe.

Spain! Italy! Greece! It’s a dream. And yet, you’d think I was talking about spinach for all my passion. What’s wrong with me?

I have to find some inspiration. What I’ve done so far is order books. They have this great website in denmark, where you can order books from any library in the country. So, I’ve managed to find travel guides for the places I want to go most, and when they come I’m going to sit in the sun, sip ice, and get really inspired about all the places I’m going to see. voila!

I’m working on this tonight. I’m finding that inspiration is the other side of loneliness for me. When I am inspired, I’m less lonely and sad. When I am with people who are with heart, I am inspired and it heals me. Tonight my heart hurt and I felt sad and instead of quelling it I sat with it and realized how uninspired I’ve been feeling. I need to work on this.

One way for me is through questioning myself until I find what I really need inspiration for.

Choral music. I can’t get enough of it! Usually I can’t stand it. Its lame, boring and usually terribly done, but I finally heard a real group, and now I’m hooked. its what we as orchestral musicians are always striving to be.
1) Salvation is Created, by Tchesnokov
2) Leonardo, by Eric Whitacre

Okay, so thats two pieces, but their both amazing.

Strings usually bore me to tears by themselves (I’m a wind instrument freak) but listening to Adagio for strings by Samuel Barber is one of the most emotional experiences I’ve ever gone through. Listen to it. You wont be disappointed.

Finally, and to me one of the most important pieces of music of all time: Brahms’ Trio for horn, violin and piano. He wrote it when his mother died, and its one of the most powerful pieces of music you’ll ever hear. Find the recording of Lowell Greer playing the horn, and you’ll agree. Its amazing. You’ll never be the same.

my engilsh teacher gave me a gift.
she said my gift would be come with time,
and that my gift was inspiration.

prior to this i was suggesting that i wanted to meet someone to inspre me to write.

perhaps it will be comming sooner then i know.

like most others, i suspect, i happened across this site in search of inspiration. i was bored/unhappy/restless/unmotivated and surfing the net looking for something to sidetrack/cure/humour me. i was another sheeple at a low point looking outward for inspiration. i opened google and typed “find inspiration” and i found 43T. i added it as a goal, and a few others besides and became a member of this magical community :) my name is ake and i’m a 43Ter!!!

reflecting on all the time i’ve been (in and out of) here (as life permits) i can concur i found inspiration :D so some 436 days later i’m reluctantly filing it as done [altho we all know its one of those ones that comes around for seconds and thirds ;)] reluctant becos i’m like a beach comber when it comes to goals, i pick them up and fill my pockets and never like to leave them behind (but NZ does have some stringent customs controls so sometimes I just have to! well, only as it pertains to foreign organic matter, i dont think they’re so preterbed about my hoarding of goals). anyway, here i go… about to click the save button… just a final thanks to “find inspiration” for finding me here :)

^{lol, i’m having a bad vocabulary day!!! i just had to edit my above comment a whole herd of times for boo-boo’s! lucky i never bother being proper with punctuation ;)}

i want to find inspiration, that will make me do things i never dreamed of attempting.

its just occurred to me i get inspiration when i’m organising things (doubting anyone would notice my goals have just been reordered) thats just plain deranged :o/ what am i??!! the worst kind of geek? or some kind of control freak?? (please dont answer that)

...must go tidy room now for obvious reasons…

[groans] work is boring me stupid – somebody save my brain from imploding

lol, i can’t even construct sentences anymore! It took me 3 goes to make this entry make sense :o\

Learning about other peoples goals and lives has really helped me come to grips with mine a bit better. Grateful to the inspiration others have given me – I’m feeling there’s a bit more to live for now =)