take a deep breath (it'll be ok)

When I am in need of the deep breath I either sing or speak firmly to remind myself. It works and that’s what matters.

for things that require a deep breath I’ve been singing a little song to help me through but maybe just knowing I need to take a deep breath will work.
Why? Because it will be okay.

I’ve been very moody lately. Happy as larry (who the hell’s this Larry we keep comparing ourselves to? PK ) one minute and absolutely gnarling my teeth the next. People. Aaaaghhhh. I think I need to take a deeeeeeep breath each time I get annoyed by someone and let the nastiness ebb away. Also, I tend to imagine people as being more….calculating than they actually are. I don’t think people mean to get my back up, or really care either way. However, I have keen defences and a meaner attack and at times, not all the time by a long shot, I get riled easily. Deep breath, exhale, be neutral.

First exam is maths on Tuesday. I don’t feel fully prepared yet but will be fine by Tuesday I’m sure. I have a few important things I really need to (or risk losing med school place) but it’s not imperative these things are done.right.this.minute. I can take a deep breath and get them done next week.

...and everything really is okay. Sometimes things just spiral out of control, small things become blown way out of proportion.

A deep breath makes puts everything back into place. After that breath, you remember what’s really important and things become realistic again.

=)

The most memorably “deep breath” moment for me was… well it was more of gasping not so much a calm intake of air…when my friend told me she was cutting her self because of me. I didn’t know I could do this so someone. Hurt them. And if you knew her, and could look into her eyes, you would want to die as I wanted to at that moment. I think I still want to, just a little, but we all do at times. I still haven’t forgiven myself for what I have done to her. The thing is I don’t know what it was that I did. She never told me, and I only have speculations. She’s forgiven me. I don’t know why. “close your eyes. take a breath. make a wish. count to three. 1. 2. 3…”

is a matter of taking things as they come and no sooner than that. <3

...good timing. Here I am, freaking out, and I see this on the website. How calming is that? It will be okay. See? Things are getting better already.

=)

Och. Everything is anxiety provoking. Everything. My employment status (nil), going back to college, the stuff everywhere, my muffin top, people, living back here, OU tutor etc.

Everything feels so messy and fucked up. I don’t know where to start. I’ve been avoiding 43T because it pains me to think about what I want to do, what I can do but am not/will not.

It’s easier to retreat and not do anything. Lame.

So am working on taking a deep breath now. It will be ok.

Anxiety has its’ place when there is a reason for it i.e an event or difficult circumstances to contend with. I don’t have anything to fuel it, it is pointless ergo I need to let it go somehow. Although, writing that first sentence has given me something to ponder.