start anew

it is time to start fresh. So here I am.

It’s been six months already since I wrote my fist enrty in this topic which is starting anew.And here I go again, after six months of trying to forget and assuming a new life, still trying.

But now, I guess, I am doing it right. I know I will always love E.C. but I also know that no matter how much I try or do, If E.C. does not love me anymore ( or if E.C. doesn’t want me back anymore), there’s nothing more I can do. I understand things now. There really are things which are completely complicated. And there’s nothing more we can do. Some things really are out of control. And I learned, it’s better to left things on their own. It’s better that way. Whatever will be, will be.

Starting anew is what I am doing. And I feel lighter. And also better.

im trying.the faRthest i got so far is being able to control myself not to see ( ok, stalk on) E.C. And I have learned to suppress E.C. in my day to day life; atleast for now. Recently I have been busy preparing for a test vtr that I am going to do this week. Evrything is moving smoothly; atleast for now.

Somethings don’t go the way you planned them to. Sometime you feel like your direction is totally wrong or just feels monotonous. You want to start fresh, clean slate.

I got this feeling a while ago. I know I’m only young but I already feel I’ve made a few wrong desicions and can’t help but feel that if I’d have gone my way, instead of the ‘right’ way, I would be alot happier and less down and whatnot.

Share your story…Y’know you want to start new too. :)