Nurture my relationship with my boyfriend

I’ve cleaned up the house for my boyfriend for him to invite his mates over. It’s something i know he appreciates as his mood is heavily influenced by his environment, as is mine actually so this benifits us both. I’m also giving my boyfriend alot more space and quietude which i know he appreciates and needs. I bought a book today why men don’t listen and women can’t read maps, it unveils the male pysche pretty accurately. I’m sure some men do listen. I know that i can’t read a map very well :))

I love him so much. It’s been nice spending time with him today chilling out watching tv and eating chinese together. Our friend has sent the whirly sound track to listen too, which is a nice music to reasonate throughout the house. There is a lovely atmosphere of peace and harmony.

I fell asleep last night whilst my boyfriend was watching movies. Im missing him alot lately. I ended up strolling into bed at 5am. He calls me beautiful and other sweet things when i’m vunerable and looks after me at my weakest. I love him so much. He’s my angel.

I don’t know if this is because we are seeing less of each other so get on each others nerves less. It’s working though, we are being loving and compassionate to each other which is great.

Tonight i’m excited that we are going to spend some time together. I love cooking for my boyfriend. I’m so thrilled to do this tonight.

It’s a beautiful passionate spiritual connection between us, a bond that is so strong. I’ve really enjoyed spending the mornings laying in bed and enjoying each other’s company. It’s good fun. I love the closeness we feel. It’s strange how our arguements are more passion, we are cheeky with each other when one of us is angry, the other laughs and is witty. I’m making focusing on the best parts of my relationship a priority now. It was great talking about our projects and philosphies in bed and sharing our stories of how each of our days have been moving forward, as we don’t see each other through the day. I love moments like the other night dancing in the kitchen together and how we challenge and grow each other together. Our relationship has seasons. It’s spring now i feel.

• I loved reading one of my books this morning on personal and spiritual development to my boyfriend as he played poker. It was great to express some new ideas to him and do a quiz on being love worthy, by a psychologist. We both scored low, we laughed. I said we need to be more to each other. He told me he was listening attentively to make me happy, therefore fulfilling a love worthy question. It was quite soothing having candles lit, reading, being in the moment and just connecting with my soulmate. Tonight i’m cooking chicken dinner for him so that he feels loved and nurtured. I like to take care of him and make him happy. It means so much to me that he feels loved. Our talks on the phone today have been gentle and our relationship is new and refreshed recoved from it’s past wounds. I intend to keep making him happy and i’ve found a new way of expressing my anger rather than venting,to actually go away for a few days or express it out of his presence so it can’t hurt him. This way i’m free to express, but it’s in a healthy way that wont damage us both. I love him with all my heart. I know he is a good person, despite my questionning of him. He is an angel.

I’ve been gentle with him today. I’m still angry at him about the past few weeks,but i’m starting to forgive and move forward and realise alot of my anger is at myself. I love him and will do everything i can to make him happy.

My boyfriend was unhappy today as his ex came for the weekend. I said he should go see her off and paid for his taxi to the station as i didn’t want him to be upset. He is friends with her. I can’t take that away from him. He means the world to me and ill do anything to make him happy.

We are both upset today. I wish i could make things easier. Again i’m going to try not engaging in conversations which i know will cause arguements. We only argue about major things in our relationship. Peace is the best thing i can give to him now. I’ve left him to think things over alone, give him his space.