Be in love with someone who loves me as much as I love them

I’ve started feeling like I’ll never find any one who will love me. I’ve never had anyone take care of me and love me, being there for me whenever i needed someone. I found one person who seemed to be everything I wanted and needed. He gave up and left me. I can’t even make myself believe that I will find someone who will love me now. I can’t get my hopes up and be disappointed like that. I’ll never trust any one to not just decide im not worth the trouble and leave me. Everyone I should be important to, only reminds I’m not important to anyone.

I gave up on it again, but i deserve this. I deserve having someone love me, and i deserve being loved just as much a i love the other person.
I’ll find them someday.

about a month ago i gave up on this. i had my heart broken, and I’m of course still hurting, but i don’t want to give up. In all honesty, I don’t want to give up on the person who last broke my heart. I want to believe we can fix things and that he will actually be it for me. Either way, i don’t want to give up on the idea of ever finding love again. i don’t want to give up on the idea that there is someone out there who will love and take care of me. I still can’t handle the idea of having to go through this kind of pain ever again, but I refuse to give up on the one thing I’ve always known for sure i wanted.

ive had my heart broken for the last time.
i will never let myself feel this pain again.
i lost the only person who made the possibility of the pain worth it.

the one person i actually thought would be it for me.

i love my swede…

I want =(

Don’t believe I’ve experienced this just yet. :]

But I can share to some extent.