stop worrying so much

the idea of some memories that cloud my mind of anxiety an panics attacks of my Relization or how iam gonna get everything i wanna get done or do is vary overwhelming when iam limited on me resources or knowledge of valuable things which in turn kinda makes me feel overwhelmed by not knowing them. iam bothered about things I may have done or just didnt do or even understand,kinda stuck in a revolving rut of constant ridicule of my own well being as a person. which becomes a worry.. I would say i have vary over bearing goals an over riding expectations of self. The only thing i can think of is a world of my own which it seems I find some peace in ,I never wanna put myself in a place that does not fit or I know isnt right .Iam hoping one day I find my sanity an faith in my heart to know how to just let things be an look toward a better now ..

I worry ALL the time, and it really is a waste!!!

Instead of worrying for something try and create a solution for it. If there are no solutions then whats the point of worrying. Just enjoy life.

I am not doing too well on this goal. My main worries these days are my professional worries about my future and my worries of being socially inept. I am working on improving my communication skills and trying to talk to one new person every week as practice. On the professional front I am trying but it maybe out of my hands. However I still worry about small things in life too like what will this person at work think of me if everything that comes out of my mouth is pure magic, if i dont pay my bill on time, to get everyting done in one day, to read every magazine I have, to make every penny count etc etc. There are more uselss things i worry about that idont remember now but will add. Sigh I am tackling the social skills worry at this time because I feel this is the biggest problem right now.

oh god, I had this thing tomorrow, I have to meet up with this guy I am designing something for, and I am freaking out!!!...

ughghghghg.. I just want to get it over with .!

Well it’s always hard to when you always have negtive thoughts.

I just want to stop being SO negative.

I loved this quote from the moment I first read it, and I try to keep it in front of me at all times. This doesn’t mean I’m attempting to sky dive any time soon. But little things like driving places I’m not familiar with, or contacting people I haven’t spoken too in a long time have been what I’ve been practicing. Also talking to my parents about things I know might cause some stress has been a scary idea. But when I talked to them (though they didn’t always like what I said) it wasn’t half as bad as what I let myself believe it would be.

i WANT to stop worrying about my looks….About every stupid detail..If I make a mistake, so what?? Don’t we all? I just feel like.. grr like I am alone in this, you know> that if I do something wrong, I am the only idiot who could possibly make such mistake!

I just need to sit back, and relax, take things slowly, live each day, I am constatly worrying about tomorrow, and the next day, and the next day.. If I could just live life one step at a time.. I think It WOULD just be so much easier!!!

Well, I reached critical mass—made myself miserable, was frantic all the time, til it finally got to a breaking point where I just….wasn’t. Some, but not nearly as much. In order to get through each day, I need 100 percent of my focus on that day (see last year’s entry on throwing yourself into difficult situations where you don’t know what you’re doing), so there’s no room for worry about much beyond the immediate moment, and there’s usually only one or two things at a time to worry about there, if anything.

So—making marked progress, most definitely. Don’t know that you ever achieve this one totally, but since I put the “so much” qualifier in there two years ago, I feel like I can chalk this one up as DONE! :)