not be afraid to cry

but I had a tear or two at the Monsters Of Folk concert. Other than that my eyes have been dry.

I think it’s detrimental to my health to be able to have a stronger grasp on my emotions, because I can go a very long time repressing feelings, when I go such a long time without letting the tears come, I spend even longer crying, my eyes are puffy and red for days after, It’s awful. I can’t even cry infront of myself, let alone other people, especially the one who is making me cry. I go into an actual frenzy if someone tries to comfort me when I’m crying, I hate how overwhelmed and unpredictable I get. I think if I could feel better about crying, like not feel it as a sign of weakeness or a form of emasculation or whatever my problem is, I might be able to cry in little spurts opposed to day long episodes that wear me ragged

I used to think that crying was a thing that showed weakness. I hated that. I only cry alone…by myself. When people see me cry it makes me really angry. I hate it.

I want to not be afraid to cry in front of people.

not be afrad to cry help …this way your friends can help you better, to solve your problem.