know who I am

i’m getting a better idea everyday of who i am and who i want to become.

i really what to know who am i?... do you all know who you are?... may be not…

I’m still in the process of figuring that out…

I’m Alex

Currently a college undergrad who’s having a hard time achieving my goals, especially on keeping up with my acads. I am LOST right now and I don’t know who to turn to. All the problems and the pressures that I’m experiencing right now is eating me. I can’t do the right decisions and my mind is always occupied. I want to find peace, get through all my inner troubles and focus on what I want to achieve, yet my troubles always pull me back.

I’m lost…

I want to find “ME” back

according to what Bill Murray in Lost In Translation says: “The more you know who you are, and what you want, the less you let things upset you.”

I don’t know who I am! I rely on what people think of me and personality quizes to tell me my style and what I’m like. I’m on a journey to, as Everlife would say, “Find myself in Me!”

I took the 43 Things Personality Quiz and found out I’m aTree Hugging Lifelong Learning Extrovert

A year ago, the start of my senor year of high school, i was proud to be a senior. Upper class men looked up to me as the guy who was a 1st degree black belt in kajukenbo, the linebacker for north hills football team, and Magabo the guy who always had fun. Well that fun came to a halt after i found out there was a foreclosure on my house. I ended up living with my older brother, his wife, my 2 nephews and my little sister in a 2 bed, 2 bath apartment. Only within 2months of my senior year. Life hit a 17 year old boy hard when he realized he needed a job again, and football was no longer an option, plus a girl who he thought was the one slip through is fingers. As the child that both sides of my family expects great things from, i felt like i can change the situation and make everything ok, so i put all the pressure on myself. I looked to my fellow teammates what i should do but they turned the other cheek. After all the tears and promises to keep in touch during graduation i never spoke to any of my fellow class mates again because of the never ending shifts at six flags discovery kingdom, working 12:15 to averagely 9pm. I never had time to find out what i wanted to be or what i wanted in life. All i wanted was my family to be ok. But i figured how would i change whats already happened? How could one 18 year old boy do the unexpected, which is fixing the problem of being financially stable? Then i realized i cant. Working, being away from my mom and dad, away from my bother and 2 sisters, i am basically living on my own straight out of high school. College? sure if i want to be in dept, navy? not bad, but its just not the life i want. i want to know that my family is going to be ok. But at the same time WHO AM I? everything i used to know about myself is gone, i don’t know who i am. for a strange reason i feel like i am part of a bigger plan. But what plan? Gods? for those who believe. i feel there is some things more. For instance, you might think i am crazy but my first memory i remember me standing on a cloud and falling into a stroller. insane right? it just brings up a whole new set of questions to mind that get me more confused about who i really am. maybe i am psychotic, maybe i am not who knows? but all i do know is that vallejo, california has nothing to offer me. I am not satisfied. I am seeking this question, WHO AM I, and i need to find out…

Beyond the liberal Christian, heretic and Universalist, extreme libertarian, borderline anarchist, ‘weird-in-a-good way,’ ‘dorky-but-cool’ David, who am I?

I want to know who I am…and now my role model as discused in therapy today. I know I am a wife on the left side of the world so called….....and a saying on someone’s myself…...as a child most children want to be dancers and I wanted to be a vampire…that fits more than anything I know of…I never wanted to be a dancer but a vampire…still to this day if given a choice I would still choose a vampire. I guess that is to say I want to know who I am. I know to this day that is a question that I search to know the answer to and I don’t know if I will EVER know the answer.
Christy