so i’ve finally been able to eat lately, quite a bit actually, thanks to the diet pills that i’ve been taking. they aren’t really keeping much weight off of me tho, of course i have been binging. i just weighed myself today and i weigh 122lbs. i guess that means im begining to get better. i broke up with my bf whom i’ve been dating for a year now and i realized that i wouldn’t eat much because i was so stressed out whenever i thought about him. hopefully i continue to maintain this weight… its better for me in the long run, right? 3 years ago
I just binged today, but i haven’t been able to purge… yes, i realize that it can hurt me in more ways than one, but im feeling really nasty. for some reason i’ve been wanting to binge and purge more than not eating. wtf is going on!? 3 years ago
my birthday was on friday and so obviously i had a few family visitors. my father came and told me that i looked like skin and bones, then i went to my mothers house and she said that im starting to look sickly thin. i dont see it still, and im eating more a day than i have been. im still not able to eat over 1,000 calories a day, but im sure that 800 is better than the 300 i have been eating in the past. maybe this means im getting better. i just hope that i can maintain a healthy weight and still be happy with my appearance. too bad that sounds like a fairytale right now. 3 years ago
So i went from 114 to 111 to 113 to 112 to 115 to 117, all within the course of 3 weeks. i’ve only gained 2lbs. since the last time i weighed in, when i was actually confident about my body, and now i’m freaking out… again. the other day my boyfriend told me i have “man legs” and that set me off. I had to go to the hospital because I keep fainting (i thought it was from dehydration) but instead they ran all my vitals, blook, ect… and decided that all of the diet pills were making my heart beat irregularly. now they are forcing me to wear an “event-monitor”, everytime i feel a fainting spell coming on i have to push a button that records and sends my heart rate to a computer at the dr.s office. just another day in my life i guess. 3 years ago
Still 114… what’s going on with my focus lately?
If anyone wants to help me out and give me advice on how to meet my goal, or just talk to me like on aim or whatever that’d be nice. I like knowing that I’m not a freak-show, and that there are other people out there with the same disease as me… my screenname is mskirstinelaine 3 years ago
Why is it that people just don’t understand how badly I want to be thin? My dad’s side of the family is always commenting on how skinny I am now, but before they couldn’t stop telling me how “pudgy” I was getting. Can’t these people realize that words hurt more than fists? I even read my journal from middle school the other day… Kids used to call me “banana thighs” and “fat-ass” even though I wasn’t much bigger than they were. Words hurt, and they still haunt me to this day. How can I forget about these nasty comments? 3 years ago
So i stepped on the scale again today, for my 7th time. I have lost a total of 2lbs. since yesterday. I don’t understand why I can’t lose anymore weight. I’ve even tried the “boost your metabolism drinks” for the past week, as well as trying the “abc” method. I’m 5’7” but am still plateauing around 114lbs. I just want to get rid of all this extra flab that I am able to pinch. My goal weight is 105, but I don’t see that happening anytime soon. Why is it that I find skin and bones to be so beautiful? How come I can never accomplish looking like a model in a magazine such as vogue? I feel like I’m a failure- I’ve already had 536 calories today. That’s 36 above my diet plan. I’m a wreck. 3 years ago
I’ve had an eating disorder for almost a year now. Only a few people know even though many have noticed and asked me if I had one I deny it though. My bulimia is getting worse and I’m scared but I just can’t stop. Today was especially awful, in science my teacher was talking about how dangerous they were and things like that. I felt so awkward even though no one knows it just made me go numb. I realize I overreacted a little bit but I still can’t believe I have one. It’s so hard I just want someone o talk to but I don’t know who I can trust. 3 years ago
why don’t I eat? i’m hungry, but I just don’t want to put food in my mouth. please, what can I do? my friends sometimes try to help me, but then I just get angry, why? confused ..! 4 years ago
i see they cancelled all the PRO ed thingy’s on this website. hahahaha, loserrs. soo, this is the only one i saw. i have a quick question, i live in florida, does ANYONE know where to buy ipecac??? 4 years ago
sw:139
gw:120
cw:136
I have eaten 2 crackers, 1 yoghurt and I will be eating tortellinies not by choise
Crackers = 60
Yoghurt =110
tortellinie = approx. 500
that is 670 cals ooh woops plus milk is 800 ish argg maybe I will just not eat many tortellinis 4 years ago
My problem is me binging on junk food and candy. I will eat alittle something when everyone is around, but then I buy five or six candy bars and eat them in 5mins. Then I feel like shit. Lets see today I had a steak burrito from jack in the box and blueberry french toast sticks, went to sleep for 8 hours, had half a big and tasty and half of fries, ate a griled cheese sandwich and corn, later had two redbulls, two recese cups, kit kat bar, and two granola bars. I have to forbid myself not to eat anything on the way home. 4 years ago
Everybody tells me im so skinny that they wish they were me but when I look in the mirror at myself all I see is FAT FAT FAT!!!!!!!:( 4 years ago
I’ve tried remoteless times to stop eating, i just cant seem to control myself. I dont know how you guys do it? can you give me some suggestions?
cw=160’
gw= 130
Myspace:myspace.com/badaddiction_88 4 years ago
i am starting to become anorexic idk if it works though. i try to exercise for an hour a day but does not eating actually work? 4 years ago
dudee and dudettes, hell did you guys over come this? I have been batteling this problem for 6 long years. I have been really high and really low its extremes with me. Lately all i eat is junk then feel quilty and exercise it off or vomit if i can do it at the time.. right now i’m 114 at 5’4 and still fucking fat as hell 5 years ago
