avoid surgery

I went in for a second opinion to day. And the gynecologist was so wonderful. He didn’t think my tone was too bad, he fit me for pessary, and he said he was confident that with that, and my herbs and qi gong/ kegels it could get better…. The pessary feels fine too, I’m a little aware of it sometimes, but hardly.

My god, what a difference. He was a real healer, you know. Not just an MD. The last doctor had barely done anything, wouldn’t push it back when I asked her, she said, “why bother, it’ll just fall out again”, and “you’re going to need a hysterectomy, no amount of kegels will help when it falls out that far”.... all this as she left the room 3 times because nurses or assistant kept knocking. Meanwhile, it’s also painful, pulling on my sacrum, rectum, everywhere down there…. and she just wouldn’t do anything, except refer me to a specialist, tell me I should expect a hysterectomy, o.k., bye now. I was thinking about it, she wasn’t evil or anything. She just wasn’t present, at all. Completely checked out.

Thank you universe. I’m feeling more optimistic, hopeful, like the medicine and I have a chance. Even if I do end up needing surgery,(but I’m optimistic I won’t), but even if I do, it’ll be easier to accept, knowing I was able to really try…

I had a prolapse, and the 1st doc I saw said I’d most likely need a hysterectomy. Now, I’m only 40, and I’ve been reading about all the sorts of complications associated with that: more prolapsed organs, severed nerves leading to chronic pain or loss of sensation, loss of control of bowel movements…. I’m freaked out a bit. Am looking into alternatives, treating myself everyday….

dear universe, any day now, I’d like to catch a break here….

If my knee doesn’t get better I have to get surgery. Hopefully i can avoid it with lots and lots of PT!