be more confident in my body

I’m definitely slowly learning to accept and luv my body eveyrday. I use to hate/be disgusted with my legs, now I’m wear cheerleding shorts everyday! Even though I’m only allowed to wear them in the house (haha-cuz theyr’e so short), but one day I did wear them outside with confidence. I am definitely more confident today than i was the day I made this goal. In fact, I have been extremely confident about my body two days in a row. I would say thats definitely an accomplishment. Coincidently, these “Confidence Days” came right after being hit on by a specific pair of guys that I know. Not that I should allow guys to determine my self-worth, but it was nice feeling attractive for once in my life.

100 pounds…..I dont want to talk about it. Honestly, it seems that this is the only number right now that would make me feel comfortable in my own skin.

I was sitting on the coach just a few minutes ago, watching NewNowNext Music on Logo. And after 4 years of despising my thighs, I just worked up the courage to tell myself that I have great legs. What the hell? I have no idea where that came from, and I doubt it will happen again. As I memorable moment, I felt the need to record it as soon as possible.

How much is more? How you guys measuring your success?

I went to Joyce Leslie and bought alot of skimpy skirts and tops. I tried on a medium for most of the clothing and they were too big! It was mind-blowing! but the small, was just perfect. I was so surprised and scared. Those skirts were so cute, but soo short. I know I’m gonna be extremely self-concious in them. I also relunctantly bought size 5 Bermuda Shorts ( cuz I thought it would be too small), but then when I tried them on at home. They were loose! I was going crazy, I’ll probably wear a belt with them, but it’ll be fine…......I wouldn’t dare try on those size 3’s!

to Look sexi in shorts and a bathing suit- means I would have to be confident in my body. It’s funny how all these goals seemt o connect somehow. Anyway, I was feeling pretty confident today with my body, so I’m wearing shorts around the house (I usually wear long pants)

I’ve also realized that any time I am confident in my body, I like to exercise, its so weird. But when I am disgusted with my body, I feel like throwing up. I like exercsing, those endorphins are definitely an awesome high.

Cheerleading is wuts keeping me confident in my body right now. I’m glad I waited until I’m comfortable with myself to start exercising, becuase exercise does help me feel better about myself. I know that exercising before would of probably helped me feel better, but I was trying to lose weight for the wrong reasons. I’m still not sure exacle wut the reasons were, but I’m sure that had something to do with the messager us teenagers are getting from the media. Now, I want to lose weight and lose body fat to get in shape for cheerleading and to feel more confident. But the thing is, wut if I don’t get into cheerleading? That little doubt is floating around in my head and is causing me to feel bad. Thats why I bought these new shorts so that once I get the body I want, I can wear them and feel awesome!

I totally hate it today !

How much is more?

I’ve noticed this strange pattern in my self-confidence. It seems to rise only in the mornings or when I wake up from a nap. I look in the mirrpr and like what I see or am atleast satisfied with what I see. It’s weird, but the feeling lasts until I eat breakfast.