Stop cutting

omg i cut agin for no reason at all i geuss i wanted to see if i was still alive infortunetly i am :(

i hate life sumtimes i just want it to go away and kill its self

i do regret alot of the things i do and i wana feel like i don’t have to regret stuff

i think cutting makes me feel a sense of reality idk y but i do and its a habit a bad 1 … but i think ill come clean on that 1 day and hopefully that day is soon :)

if u have any adivce to help me please do i rele need help!!!

kee_08_sparkle@hotmail.com

i no its wrong to cut but its like i need to keep doing it, i no thats silly but it an addiction!

speacking of addictions i was a big drug addict a little while ago, but now i am completly clean for about 4 months now and i have had alot of help on the way.. but if i can stop drugs i can stop cutting… rite?

it all started in gr.7

when every1 had found out a little secret bout me, that secret brouahgt my reputation down and i put myself down, all my close friends had moved away and alot of my family mebers were dying, and my boyfriend broke up with me… things were pretty shity!!

and i still feel betrayed … rumors flew as i was the new subject or victim in this terrible time… and when people found out i cut i was called emo and ho and dirt and bitch and stuff like that which made no sense to me at all, i have never met someone who has cut… and there were alot of terrible things happening i just felt like what the people called me… and i still cut and wana stop

Im ashamed of my wrist. I have to hide it or be self conscious around other people. It ruins my day when i see it. and its hurting other people around me. Started 3 years ago. Stopped for almost year. And just sort of got back into it. =[ old habit. must break it. its ridiculous

ive cut for years and just relized how shameful i am over it running away from my pain everytime i feel like im a little girl again and i just want to stop and make everything go away

ive cut for years and just relized how shameful i am over it running away from my pain everytime i feel like im a little girl again and i just want to stop and make everything go away

I don’t want to document this anymore. It reminds me of when I used to keep a diary.

When you have a good day nothing else matter except that good day. So you write pages upon pages of ‘I feel great. I don’t need this. Everything will be fine. That was the last time. I was stupid do start this in the first place. It’s gone! I’m better now!’ Then the next time you feel bad and you do it and you want to write in your little diary you’ll read your happy up-beat page and feel like shit. You’ll think ‘What’s the point? Look how happy I was that day, I was fine. I was so sure I was going to stop, I was never going to do it again and it was all going to be fine. I can’t do it, I can’t do anything.’ and then you feel worse and guess what happens?

I’m so sick of it. I’m sick of the feelings and the thoughts and…everything. I’m sick of the horrible feeling I get when I remember that my mum knows. Whenever she says something overly loving to me or tells me she loves me then I instantly think ‘it’s because she thinks I’m cutting myself’ and I hate that. I can’t even be sad or upset without knowing that she’s thinking about it.

Oh god.. I feel like I’m going to explode. I need to vent… out loud.

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Hey you guys you can do it!!!
i haven’t cut in 8 months!
my secret…...
God. pray and get support from your friends and family and you can do it
I PROMISE!!!!!!!!!

i havent cut for aboutthree weeks but i hve erges all the time, sometims i think there is a hole i cant fill but i guessi will keep trying hard not to cut anymore ,, tanks for listening