become numb

i’ll fall for almost anything. when i meet someone with whom i share any good feelings/connection, i instantly have high hopes, but everyyyone turns out the same way. i still don’t know if i’m ready to take the leap with this goal, but i know i probably should.

when i first added this goal, i didn’t really have my heart behind it. i wanted to not care about negative things, but still experience the beautiful, positive things. but the more i experience, in my admittedly short lifetime so far, the more i realize that all people i come in contact with and develop feelings for end up being douchebags. which makes me realize that if i’m going to do this, i have to do it all the way. i have to become numb to both the negative and the positive. and i’m not sure i’m ready to do that yet? i don’t knowww.