list life's happy moments

Well not quite, work had been driving me crazy these last few months so I arranged a meeting with the owners and told them what I thought, they were all ears but no solutions so I asked for a raise, if I’m going to be unhappy at work I need more pay.
We agreed to have another meeting the following week but in the meantime I had time to think more clearly and realized no pay rise would take the edge off being unhappy and I’m actually doing fine for cash too -I just put aside $6000 these last few months.
So I told them I’d changed my mind and asked to work 4 days instead of 5 for the same pay plus the job of running staff training once a month for extra pay while keeping my 2 months holiday a year
...and they said yes!
last week was my first 4 day week and it’s a holiday here on monday so I’ve got 4 days off -sweet, sweet leisure time how I love thee!

-Shoting real photography with my “new” old analog camera, with Black&White films. It’s a puuurre happiness.

I’ve always been a supporter of digital photography for practical reasons. But, I have to say that nothing tastes like taking photos in this way and pressing your very own photos in a dark room (I’m learning to use the dark room too.)

Since my very early ages,I knew that I had a thing for photography, but now I know that photography is my passion.

Being back at my hometown for semester holiday
and waking up at 2 PM.
Feeling beloved
Sleeping in my beautiful cosy room.
NOT being have to share a place with other people.
NOT waking up for someone else’s morning alarm.
Having a half litre of fresh orange juice.
Having NOTHING to do for coming two weeks :))

*had an amazingly deep talk with my boyfriend. <3
*made a new friend that i have alot in common with.
*saw the movie Twilight; i like the books better though.
*hung out at home with my boyfriend; relaxed. (:
*just got off being groundeddd. yay.

• Empty Hall.
• Two music-lovers.
• Beethoven’s Piano sonata no.23 op.57 while reading music.

Being back in Eskişehir for our Ramadan Holiday though I didn’t miss it at all.
The rainy/gloomy Sunday.
Cold weather.
To have nothing to do.
Listening to this song again and again since I woke up.

Finding my very first crush (whom I was never able to get over) from facebook. [In the past we were together for like one week and it was the most unforgettable summer crush of my life, also the very first.]

Learning that he lives in Ankara.

Starting to date with him :D

^{I should write a letter to the 13 y/o Didem and tell her that she shouldn’t worry and should dry her eyes and just wait about 7 years :D}

Life is so dazzling.

• Receiving the cutest postcard from very beloved Emilia :)

^{What a sweeeet postcard is this! And oh the lovely pair of those doors!! This girl really knows what I like :) Thank you Emilia for putting that huge smile on my face today, you are sweeeeet <3}

• Tomorrow
  is the first page of the new chapter of my life.

I’m offically and literally moving to Ankara tomorrow!
I’m feeling really complicated things right now.
I’m excited and I’m scared.
I’m happy, cause I’ve waited for this moment for my entire life and dreamed of becoming a METU student, But I’m sad that I’m leaving my parents’ house (also my beloved room&bed + beloved city etc.) and going to a city of 3.5 millions!!

I’m also really afraid of being dissapointed about METU, cause I wanted to be there for so long. And the METU that I created in my mind can be way different from the real METU.

But well… Things will be ok. I’ll figure them out hopefully! Or at least it’s not time to worry,

It’s time to embrace the things that tomorrow will bring and also time to get out my aquarium and see the real ocean!

May all the powers of universe be with me!

^{P.S: Sorry for the bad quality of the photo, but this is the best I could right now since everything is packed :-/}

• I dyed my hair red! I always wanted to do it and I really like the result :)

• I had two friends from Spain visiting me in Eskişehir and it had been lods of fun! I forgot how much it’s a fun to host someone from another country, I should definitely do it more ^ _ ^

• I spoke some Spanish with them, I’m of course far away from being enough, but they told me that my pronunciation is good :)

• I’ve had a staying-over party a few days ago at a friends home, was fun.

• Spanish guys say that I should definitely visit them in Barcelona next summer :)

• September is coming! It had never been this close, The university!!! oh myyyy :))

in the flashlight’s light beam there were thousands of tiny water droplets swimming like pieces of alga in clear water. The eyes adapted slowly to the world in which the light came from nowhere and all the directions at the same time. We sat at the beach right close to the waterline in a darkness in which one talks about the beginning of the universe. In front of us expanded a misty view filled with grey and white light, the edge of the world, like a critical error in vision, or sandblasted glass, and the black shape of the dock stretched out towards emptiness.