keep it real

If you cant please yourself who can you please?

naked and unashamed. Honestly this goal will probably be up here for a while since it is a lifetime goal that I need to be aware of everyday.

I kept it real by using a politically incorrect term today. I said Have a Good Christmas.

I kept it pretty real yesterday. Maybe a little bit to real. I don’t know if that is possible.

I talked to a proff. of mine for about twenty minutes today. I kept it real.

or at least today it is. cough... I find myself second-guessing things I like, or would want to say or do for fear of… i’m not even sure what. well, i guess, just not being gotten, i suppose. that’s a tricky one for two reasons. reason one: in order to feel satisfied and happy, one must say and do what is on one’s heart and in one’s mind. basically. but (reason 2:) rarely is anything said or done purely for its intrinsic value. We are social beings, doing and saying things to impress upon others a thought or to garner a reaction, or response; the intent is to communicate something. usually. so what good is it to do anything when no one gets it? unless the only thing meant to be gotten out of it is that you are crazy and detached from reality. it’s a serious problem for me.

and i’m gonna go ‘head and throw a reason three out there too, even tho i don’t really remember what the reason was supposed to apply to, but i’m gonna say it had something to do with “keeping it real.” anyways, yes, it’s hard for me to keep it real, no matter how determined I am to do so, because my “real” is often incompatible with everyone else’s “real”. It seems to often be either too intense, or too.. whatever the opposite of intense is… bland? plaid? paisley?

AND ANOTHER THING! my reality seems to correspond better with someone else. someone that looks different i guess. I feel i’ve been typecast. i don’t care what enyone says. well, i suppose i care what someone has to say, but i’m very skeptical toward anyone attempting to dispute this. they better come strong with some evidence to the contrary. because from what i’ve seen, it’s, if not “frowned-upon”, then, gravely misunderstood for a black african american female to feel and think and conduct themselves in such a manner as I prefer to. the end.

I am reading a fabulous book. It is called the Art of Possibility by Rosamund and Benjamin Zander.
There is a chapter in it about Remember Rule #6.

Rule #6 means “don’t take yourself so g__damn seriously.”

There aren’t any other rules.

I found a notebook I had from last year. This list was in the notebook. I copied it from somewhere at some point because I thought it was cool, but now I don’t remember where it came from. It’s pretty cool though.

1. 99% of problems are caused by fear and avoidance.
2. Reality is not optional.
3. Self esteem is the reputation you have with yourself.
4. The fantasy of “freedom without responsibility” is just that, imagined by those who are incapable of maturity and self-discipline.
5. Good intentions without follow through are as useful as a screen door on a submarine.
6. The pain is inevitable; the suffering is optional.
7. Everything worth having is hard to get.
8. You get what you focus on.

People choose everything that happens to them, whether they know it or not-
either through their choices and all the choices that led to them, or through the choice of not choosing.

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