Write more often and write my own book

i’m taking a creative writing module for a kick in the right direction

Ever since my creative writing class I’ve beaten myself up over my writing, assuming it’s crap and not really looking too indepthly into my own work.. Well, I need to get over it, because I know for a fact that I am technically a good writer, and my imagination is vivid.. It must be done. I want to try to write just a little bit daily, and write more indepthly twice weekly, and build on that small structure. And of course, I’d like to write a book someday. I’m not quite sure what about, more likely than not, I’ll write about my own life and experiences, since I feel that most of them must be acknowledged my future generations.. My grandfather did this for his children, grandchildren, and now great grand children, and he also told me that I’d better keep a journal, for someday, my memories would be vague and difficult to write.. seeing as I use drugs, and many memories are already foggy due to that, I’d better at least write about my daily life on a very regular basis.

Let’s see how it goes…..

I love to write anyway, but I question if that is more as an outlet for my innner thoughts than material that people would want to read.

I need to look over my own writing with a critical eye. I’d like to stay true to myself, but I also want to improve.

HI IM BRITTANY AND IM 20 IM PREGNANT BUT IT WASN’T MY FAULT I WAS RAPED …..WHEN MY LIFE TURNED FROM GOOD TO BAD WAS WHEN I WAS 4 AND MY LIFE WAS CRAZY MY MOM GOT ADDICTED TO DRUGS AND I WAS LEFT HOME ALONE UNTIL MY GRAND MOTHER CAME AN RESCUED MEWHEN I FINISHED MIDDLE SCHOOL I DECIDED TO GIVE HER ANOTHER CHANCE SO I CALLED AND TOLD HER MY IDEA AND WHEN I ARRIVED AT HER HOME IN BROOKLYN NEW YORK I KNOCKED ON THE DOOR WHEN SHE ANSWERD I WAS STUNNED SHE WAS BEAUTIFUL (REHAB DID HER GOOD) WHEN I GOT INSIDE SHE ASKED ME HOW I WAS AND I TOLD HER EVERYTHING IT WAS LIKE IT WAS THE FIRST TIME WE EVER TALK SHE GAVE ME A TOUR OF THE NEIGHBORHOOD AND WHEN WE GOT BACK THERE WAS A WHITE TRUCK IN THE DRIVEWAY SHE STOPPED ME AND SAID I HAD TO MEET SOMEONE WHEN WE GOT INSIDE THERE WAS LOUD MUSIC AND A DOG BARKING

IT WAS SOMEONE BUT NOT JESSE I WAS FACE TO FACE WITH A MONSTER A MAN THAT WAS OLDER THAN I EXPECTED OLDER THEN I WANTED I STARTED RUNNING AND YOU COULD HER WAS AN ENGINE HE OPENED THE DOOR AND GRABBED ME IN AND THAT’S ALL I REMEMBER WHEN I AWOKE ALL I HEARD WAS A LOUD SHOUT SAYING WAKE UP AND TILL THIS DAY I HAVE BEEN TRAPPED IN THIS HOUSE WITH HIM AND NOW IM 20 YEARS OLD AND I STILL HSVE NOT BEEN RESCUED AND NOW I HAVE’NT BEEN A VIRGIN SINCE I WAS SIXTEEN

I AGREED AND HE SAID OKAY I PICK YOU UP AT 7:00 TONIGHT SO I SAID OKAY AND CALLED MY MOM AND TOLD HER I WAS GOING TO BE AT A FRIEND FROM SCHOOL’S HOME SHE SAID OKAY HAVE A NICE TIME .WHEN I GOT DRESSED I TRIED TO THINK IT OVER BUT IT DIDN’T MATTER BECAUSE I LIKED HIM AND I WAS HOOKED AND HE TOLD ME HE LOVED ME SO I JUST HAD TO MEET HIM .WHEN I WALKED OUT THE FRONT DOOR IT WAS 6:58 AND OUT OF THE BLUE THERE WAS A BLACK SUV THAT PULLED UP WITH TINTED WINDOWS THE WINDOW ROLLED DOWN AND SOMEONE SAID ARE YOU ALEX …......TO BE CONTIUED

I ASKED HIM WHAT WAS HIS NAME HE TOLD ME JESSE HE SAID HE DIDN’T KNOW WHO I WAS BUT HE WAS JUST SAW A PICTURE OF ME AND THOUGHT I WAS BEAUTIFUL I WAS FLATTERD BUT STILL FUZZY ABOUT IT BUT I GAVE HIM A CHANCE TO TALK TO ME A COUPLE OF DAYS WENT BY AND WE WERE STILL TALIKING WE WERE HAVIN A BLAST LIVIN IT UP IN THEY DAY TIME BUT AT NIGHT IT WAS ALL ABOUT US TWO THEN ONE DAY HE ASKED ME DID I WANT TO MEET HIM AND GO ON A DATE …..........TO BE CONTINUED

HI IM ALEX IM 15 FINALLY THE LAST BELL OF THE DAY RINGS AND I WAS OUT THE DOOR. WHEN I ARRIVED HOME I RUSHED TO THE COMPUTER AND SAID FINALLY IT’S SUMMER BREAK I COULDN’T WAIT TO USE MY TIME TO MAKE THIS A PERFECT SUMMER . I CHECKED FRIENDMAIL MESSAGES TO SEE IF ONE OF THEM LEFT A MESSAGE OUT OF NOWERE I GOT A FRIEND REQUEST FROM A GUY THAT I DIDN’T EVEN KNOW…....... TO BE CONTINUED

have you ever had a guy come into your life and completly destroy everything ? or in other
words call up your bestfriend and tell her he loved her and also said something to her and
told her that she wasn’t allowed to tell u and your afraid that it might mess up your
relationship and when you confronted him about it and he said he never did and if you asked him to tell you the truth and he still lied but said he had to go but this happened on a weekend and you knew that he didn’t have to go anywhere and you also had to go on a movie date on the next day
what should u do ?
or should you tell him it’s over?