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Food has been my comfort for almost 30 years. When I was young, I would eat because I had no real friends. I ate because there was a satisfying feeling that I craved. I wanted to be filled with love but lacked it from my mother and father, so I ate. When I was sexually abused, I ate more because I thought no one would want me if I was fat. Then I ate because no one wanted me.
After hitting rock bottom with depression this year, I took a number of drastic turns in my life. On May 20th of this year, I had gastric lap band surgery. It was not the easy way out. I went from 310 to 278 and I’m up to 283 because I needed to feel satisfied again. It has been very difficult because I haven’t been able to control my eating habits.
I went to so many classes that told me what I should be eating and how much but when I was lonely, I would stuff myself. I hate I got the surgery before I was ready but I am feeling motivated to gain control now. I am praying that due to the Lap Band it shouldn’t be hard to get a grip. I would encourage anyone who is dealing with issues of depression to put off weight surgery until you have dealt with your problems first.
