everytime i hurt. 7 years ago

Yes, I have fought the ingrained urge in myslef to run from the chaos that can be home, when you have a husband you are not sure cares and a trio of teenage children. 7 years ago

I could turn pro at this if necessary…especially when it comes to interpersonal relationships.

I’m working on this with the help of a good friend. I promised him I won’t run and disappear when we hit a glitch. So far so good. As it turns out it is not so bad talking things out. It gets wearisome to keep running with a backpack chock full of worries and despair.

Better to stay put and kick that bag to the curb.

Hang in there! 7 years ago

This is probably the hardest entry I’ve ever written. This is a hard one to talk about. I’m not sure why I do this, but I do. I guess it’s easier to run than sit still and communicate, whether it’s with a friend, a member of the family, or the person I love the most. I’m working on it. That’s all I can say. 7 years ago

I’ve had enough practise with this one, I’m ready to say I’m all good. Yay!

_{(Excellent photo from joeyharrison.com.)}7 years ago

if you think it’s funny when I say that it’s incredibly easy to fight the urge to run up a mountain when it gets really difficult to even walk uphill. I always slow down and stop to walk whenever track practice gets difficult and I really need to stop doing that if I ever want to improve. I hope to do better in practice today. We’re going up some stupid mountains again. 7 years ago

I know it’s sometimes hormonal, but there really are days when I want to say &@%$ this! and leave if only it weren’t so destructive and hurtful that I know it would just result in more damage in the long run.

Besides, what would this goal be for? And it’s me that goes away, not whatever those difficult things are; eventually they’d either catch up or we just meet again.

::bites bullet:: 7 years ago

My current position – probably a mistake. My gut instinct was to NOT take it. However, work guidelines say I’m stuck in it for 10 more months, unless there’s dramatically extenuating circumstances. (It’s a strong guideline, not a mandate.)

Well, now there’s 3 other positions open in the company that require a specialized degree/certificate – one that maybe 10 people total (in a HUGE company) actually have. I’ve got it. They might have to hire outside the company if they can’t find qualified people inside. And I’m inside.

But do I stay in a seriously difficult situation and see what I can learn from it (among other things, how to stay in that very difficult situation for 10 more months – see my goal about ‘difficult coworker’)? Or do I ask for permission to investigate the other job(s)? 7 years ago

And today’s question is: Can he keep me here? Because I’m still not sure and that makes me feel sad. And maybe because, for the first time ever, I really do want to stay. 7 years ago

Nobody wants to have a difficult time, that’s for sure, but running off doesn’t make it any easier. More often than not, it just either delays or extends the agony. I just have to learn to bite the bullet and stick around until it’s through.

But honestly, sometimes I really do get so scared I’d think my heart would stop beating at that very moment. And that’s when I run. 7 years ago