stop screwing up

I AM SO CLUMSY AND ahh i feel like such a looser sometimes! i was volunteering yesterday inthis fashion show, and i let the model go without her purse!! plus on top of that the model was a little rude! it was my first time, and I am a nervouse person already, so imagine!! I know people say it wasent a big deal, but what if this was my job, and what if this was with a big designer u know! oh i feel so depress right now i feel like a failure !

I wish I could stop screwing up at work. Sometimes I feel like I’m a complete failure and that I’m not cut out for this job. It’s not worth it going to an office where you know you’re work is going to get criticized and you know you screwed something up, even if it was something small. Maybe a career change is needed?

god i wish i could stop fucking things up with my boyfriend, its like we get over one problem and i create the next. sometimes i just feel like god (if there is one) is trying to make a poiint with me. As soon as i mess up i can see stright away what i should of done, if its that i shoulda put him before some i didnt know or if i shouldnt of been so bloody dozy! or explained things better so it didnt look like i was lying. but now he thinks am doing it coz i dnt care, or that i am just thinking about my self and not us, but that not the case at all i love him with all my heart but i dont think he sees that and i know am pushing him further and further away, with each nexts mess up. sometimes i really hate my self for it but he just thinks thats my way of getting attention and getting out of it with the “crocadile tears” i feel so lost i just wanna be normal. some times i really think ive git something wrong with me like am slow or something, coz i never seem to learn things never seem to go in. and now it got to the point where i know its just a matter of time before he ends it and i have no choice but to except it. i no am annoying and clumsy, but its not because its not my stuff its cz i cant help it, i just wish i ada bit more common sense and could do the right thing instead of the wrong, am just so scared and lost what can i do?